Stupid god damn superbowl...
So my boyfriend is a fucking moron. He wasn't going to go watch the superbowl but then, decides to, when he was going to spend time with me.
He's being a complete fucking douche and he was like yelling at me on the phone because I was upset that he would rather go out, to the bar and watch football than spend time with me. He's being a god damn asshole. Oh but it's okay because "it's his team playing" so therefore I guess he HAS to go? I don't fucking know but I want to kill him right now. And he's there while that Helen girl is working. LOVELY. And he thinks I just think he's going to do something or fool around with someone, but that's not the point. I realize he is with his god damn sister and I know he's not going to do anything but I wanted to spend time with him. He said he wasn't going to freaking go anyway.
Like why the fuck couldn't they go somewhere I can go too? I can't go to "slutwaters" like everyone else because Im not 19. There ARE other places that it's playing that dont have an age limit. UGH. I'm so fucking frustrated. If you havn't noticed...
Oh but he's going to call me at half-time! Wonderful eh?
Anyway, fuck, I have been at my moms house all weekend and I havn't gone on the computer so that's my excuse for not updating this thing.
I worked Friday night and today and Saturday I went to Denim's and the mall. Ohhh yeah I dyed my hair. It's supposed to be dark brown but it's BLACK. I am pissssed. I hate black on me lol. I was hoping it wouldn't be this dark at all but unfortunatley it is. Other people say it looks nice but I don't agree. It's so phony looking I think. Some people can pull it off really well but I am not one of them lol. And, uhhh, it's so hard to get rid of. My hair is going to look like shit when it starts to grow out. It's going to have brown on top and black on bottem. Greaaat.
When is half-time anyway? I don't even freaking know when the damn thing started for god sakes ! Besides I dont really want to even talk to him. I am completely ticked off. I think I'm just so mad because he's being such a dick about it and he's like feeding the fire. He's an idiot. He has to expect that I don't want him being there with Helen, like not after he did that shit to me. Talking to her inappropriately... you know what I mean. Like "hey sexy... and omg you're so fucking hot you looked so fucking sexy tonight" etc... Yeah that's my boyfriend alright. I'm so fucking proud to say he's mine too... I love him more than anything. But man, what the hell is wrong with him? Really? I don't fucking do that shit to him. But it's alright for him to walk all over me right? That's just how it's supposed to be. I'm supposed to live with it.
I wish I didn't love him sometimes... I will never be able to hate him. I will never be able to NOT love him..
It would make my life so much easier if I didn't have a boyfriend and I really hate feeling that way.
I love him D=
He's being a complete fucking douche and he was like yelling at me on the phone because I was upset that he would rather go out, to the bar and watch football than spend time with me. He's being a god damn asshole. Oh but it's okay because "it's his team playing" so therefore I guess he HAS to go? I don't fucking know but I want to kill him right now. And he's there while that Helen girl is working. LOVELY. And he thinks I just think he's going to do something or fool around with someone, but that's not the point. I realize he is with his god damn sister and I know he's not going to do anything but I wanted to spend time with him. He said he wasn't going to freaking go anyway.
Like why the fuck couldn't they go somewhere I can go too? I can't go to "slutwaters" like everyone else because Im not 19. There ARE other places that it's playing that dont have an age limit. UGH. I'm so fucking frustrated. If you havn't noticed...
Oh but he's going to call me at half-time! Wonderful eh?
Anyway, fuck, I have been at my moms house all weekend and I havn't gone on the computer so that's my excuse for not updating this thing.
I worked Friday night and today and Saturday I went to Denim's and the mall. Ohhh yeah I dyed my hair. It's supposed to be dark brown but it's BLACK. I am pissssed. I hate black on me lol. I was hoping it wouldn't be this dark at all but unfortunatley it is. Other people say it looks nice but I don't agree. It's so phony looking I think. Some people can pull it off really well but I am not one of them lol. And, uhhh, it's so hard to get rid of. My hair is going to look like shit when it starts to grow out. It's going to have brown on top and black on bottem. Greaaat.
When is half-time anyway? I don't even freaking know when the damn thing started for god sakes ! Besides I dont really want to even talk to him. I am completely ticked off. I think I'm just so mad because he's being such a dick about it and he's like feeding the fire. He's an idiot. He has to expect that I don't want him being there with Helen, like not after he did that shit to me. Talking to her inappropriately... you know what I mean. Like "hey sexy... and omg you're so fucking hot you looked so fucking sexy tonight" etc... Yeah that's my boyfriend alright. I'm so fucking proud to say he's mine too... I love him more than anything. But man, what the hell is wrong with him? Really? I don't fucking do that shit to him. But it's alright for him to walk all over me right? That's just how it's supposed to be. I'm supposed to live with it.
I wish I didn't love him sometimes... I will never be able to hate him. I will never be able to NOT love him..
It would make my life so much easier if I didn't have a boyfriend and I really hate feeling that way.
I love him D=