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You know, I really didn't think that things between Terry and me could any worse. Then, of course the situation had to go and defy expectations and it did. Tes and I decided last night that we were sick of his evasive indecision and confronted him. Needless to say, it didn't go to well, and now he isn't speaking to either of us.
Terry's the first boy I've ever felt this way about. When I used to talk to Beitris and we imagined what our first love affairs would be like, I would have never imagined it would be like this. I never imagined that it would hurt so much. Or that I would be so stupid. I feel pathetic- all I want right now is to have him back in some sort of way.
Now, I know that half of you guys are going to be angry with me for filling up these journals with teen angst. But honestly, life sucks right now.
Terry's the first boy I've ever felt this way about. When I used to talk to Beitris and we imagined what our first love affairs would be like, I would have never imagined it would be like this. I never imagined that it would hurt so much. Or that I would be so stupid. I feel pathetic- all I want right now is to have him back in some sort of way.
Now, I know that half of you guys are going to be angry with me for filling up these journals with teen angst. But honestly, life sucks right now.