Self-worth-less-ful-ness-ism-istic.
"The truth that takes some people a long time to realize is that self-worth is inherent. You have an essential value, worth, and dignity just by virtue of the fact that you're a human being."
Hmmm. I can honestly say that I've never believed this. And I don't believe it now. It's one of those things that you hear somewhere from someone, maybe more than once, and you go, "Yea, yea, yea, sure, that sounds right," but don't really think about it. At least I haven't. And now that I'm thinking about it, I realize that I don't believe it.
And part of my problem is that if human beings don't have an intrinsic self-worth, then not just not me, but no one else has a worth. And I try to give people what I feel will make them worth something. And they don't need it. I guess I think they do, that they're like me, so I try to give them what I think I need to feel worth. Or, I just treat them as worthless.
I don't buy it; I feel like there has to be something of worth to a person more than just existing. And I guess that belief is wrong. Can anyone out there verify this?
And I guess if my mere existence is worth something, then I really don't know how to exist; to be. Where could I have learned this?
Could I seriously have some worth even if I just stayed home all day and jerked off to YouTube videos (like I did today)?