Otona no Omocha

[m_i_s_a_k_i]

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Artist: Rin
Lyrics/Music composition: Utsu-P

愛された形跡は残されてなく
Aisareta keiseki wa nokosarete naku
The evidence for being loved was missing

滞りなく通わせた幸福もなく
Todokourinaku kayowaseta koufuku mo naku
Without delay the haunted happiness was also non-existent

残された玩具箱引っくり返して
Nokosareta omochabako hikkurikaeshite
The leftover toy box was reversed

また僕は耐え抜いて作り笑顔出す
Mata boku wa taenuite tsukuri egao dasu
I withstood and smiled

贋物の　喘ぎ声
Nisemono no aegigoe
The fake's moan

赤子用玩具のように牛耳られた心の傷
Akago you omocha no you ni gyuujirareta kokoro no kizu
Dominated by the soul's scars like a baby toy

去り行く背中姿に絶え間なく降り注ぐ雨
Sariiku senaka sugata ni taema naku furisosogu ame
On my back the rain continues falling without becoming extinct

息を吐くように嘘吐き
Iki wo haku you ni usohaki
A lie as if it were exhaled

正気さえ奪う
Shoukisae ubau
Even sanity is robbed

黒く滲んだ憎悪を
Kuroku nijinda zouo
The painted black hate

解き放つ時
Tokihanatsu toki
The moment I unleash [that]

ほら　アブナイ玩具に手を掛けて
Hora ABUNAI omocha ni te wo kakete
Hey, hold that dangerous toy in your hand

醜い身体を打ち抜いてやれ
Minikui shintai wo uchinuite yare
Punch that ugly body

声にならぬ感情に身を振るわせ
Koe ni naranu kanjou ni mi wo furuwase
Let that body shake in a way that can't be told

腐り果てた患部ブチ抜いてやれ
Kusari hateta kanbu BUCHI nuite yare
Hit the rotting wound

僕を切り裂いた刃より
Boku wo kirisaita ha yori
More than the knife that cuts me up

重く深く突き刺さる　言の葉で
Omoku fukaku tsukisasaru Koto no ha de
Are the heavy and deep words piercing

隙間から見えたのは大人だけの世界
Sukima kara mieta no wa otona dake no sekai
I saw from that crack what was a world for adults only

汚くて暑苦しいトラウマの宝庫
Kitanakute atsukurushii TORAUMA no houko
The dirty and hot trauma's treasure

押入れに築いてた僕だけの世界
Oshiire ni kizuiteta boku dake no sekai
My very own world built up in that closet

美しく清々しい夢と希望の国
Utsukushiku sugasugashii yume to kibou no kuni
Is a beautiful and clean world of dreams and hopes

歪まれた　脳細胞
Yukamareta nousaibou
Distorted brain cells

開かれた心の隅
Hirakareta kokoro no sumi
In a corner of my opened heart
浮かび上がる傷口と
Ukabi agaru kizuguchi to
Old wounds emerge and

甦る記憶の鍵
Yonin kaeru kioku no tabi
The revived key for my memories

たった一言
Tatta hitokoto
Just one word

「いなくなれ」
"Inakunare"
"Disappear"

太陽を気まぐれに遮り
Taiyou wo kimagure ni saegiri
Interrupting the whim of the sun

希望を蝕む
Kibou wo mushibamu
Ruin the hope

影坊主が友達になり
Kagebouzu ga tomodachi ni nari
The shadow-priest became my friend

永遠の闇
Eien no yami
Eternal darkness

罪悪感ゼロ
Zaiakukan ZERO
The guilty feeling is zero

たのしいおもちゃ
Tanoshii omocha
Fun toy

おとなのおもちゃ
Otona no omocha
Adult's toy

いきてるおもちゃ
Ikiteru omocha
Living toy

つかえるおもちゃ
Tsukaeru omocha
Useful toy

たのしいおもちゃ
Tanoshii omocha
Fun toy

おとなのおもちゃ
Otona no omocha
Adult's toy

いきてるおもちゃ
Ikiteru omocha
Living toy

かなしいな―
Kanashii na-
Sad, isn't it...

ほら　アブナイ玩具に手を掛けて
Hora ABUNAI omocha ni te wo kakete
Hey, hold that dangerous toy with your hands

醜い記憶を打ち抜いてやれ
Minikui kioku wo uchinuite yare
And beat up that ugly memories

憎しみ尽くしてこびり付いてた
Nikushimi zukushite kobiritsuiteta
With all my hatred I was cleansed

穢い垢を落とす時が来た
Hikanai aka wo otosu toki ga kita
From that dirt hanging on me, that time has come

誰もわかっちゃくれないよ
Daremo wakaccha kurenai yo
Noone will understand

僕にしか分からぬミリの罠
Boku ni shika wakaranu MIRI no wana
The trap nobody apart from me knows, only millimetres big

目に見えぬほどちっぽけでも
Meni mienu hodo chippokedemo
Even though it's not visible to the eye

重く深く突き刺さる
Omoku fukaku tsukisasaru
It pierces me heavily and deeply

言の葉で
Koto no ha de
With that words