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don't be a criminal in this police state
you better shop and eat and procreate
you got vacation days then you might escape
to a condo on the coast
i set my watch to the atomic clock
i watch the crowd count down 'til the bomb gets dropped
i always figured that there'd be time enough
i never let it get me down
but i can't help it now
i've never felt as much need to be as far away as possible as right now.
and it's really weird, because my relationship with my parents is probably at the best place it's been in years and it's odd to have other reasons to be away, i guess. i miss my friends. i miss myself. and honestly, i don't know what the hell i'm doing these days. i've put myself in this intensely awkward position, and even fooled myself so immensely into fake happiness that i'm not even really sure where i lost it all. because i didn't take the time to deal with the actual situations, but pushed myself into these relationships that i thought would take care of everything.
i've never felt these kind of regrets. this fucking sucks. but once again, what is the first thing i want to do? run away, most definitely. but somehow, i think that is exactly what i need. to get out of this town away from these people. i'm cold, and empty and fucking alone, and i need to get my life in order. i realized how fucked up everything is when i was driving away from his house last week. and janis joplin was on the radio. hahaha. and i just realized that i neverr took the time to be sad about what was going on. i concentrated so hard on the bad stuff and my self justifications and i ignored anything else, i shut it all off and now i can't even feel anything. i really have changed.
why can't i feel anything from anyone but you.
you better shop and eat and procreate
you got vacation days then you might escape
to a condo on the coast
i set my watch to the atomic clock
i watch the crowd count down 'til the bomb gets dropped
i always figured that there'd be time enough
i never let it get me down
but i can't help it now
i've never felt as much need to be as far away as possible as right now.
and it's really weird, because my relationship with my parents is probably at the best place it's been in years and it's odd to have other reasons to be away, i guess. i miss my friends. i miss myself. and honestly, i don't know what the hell i'm doing these days. i've put myself in this intensely awkward position, and even fooled myself so immensely into fake happiness that i'm not even really sure where i lost it all. because i didn't take the time to deal with the actual situations, but pushed myself into these relationships that i thought would take care of everything.
i've never felt these kind of regrets. this fucking sucks. but once again, what is the first thing i want to do? run away, most definitely. but somehow, i think that is exactly what i need. to get out of this town away from these people. i'm cold, and empty and fucking alone, and i need to get my life in order. i realized how fucked up everything is when i was driving away from his house last week. and janis joplin was on the radio. hahaha. and i just realized that i neverr took the time to be sad about what was going on. i concentrated so hard on the bad stuff and my self justifications and i ignored anything else, i shut it all off and now i can't even feel anything. i really have changed.
why can't i feel anything from anyone but you.