Hmm...
Not sure what to write about right now... I feel a bit tired, and kind of dazed. not sure what it is, but I doubt the colder weather is helping. It's starting to get cooler around here, trading in my shorts for sweats. Makes me just want to curl up inside some blankets. Shoot, that reminds me, I need to put a blanket in the wash... haven't used one in awhile and it'll probably be full of dust.
Okay, back, had to stop this to go up to dinner... I don't feel so great, my stomach is bugging me, I ate too much and now I'm all "blah" feeling. I really don't get this.. why is it on the one hand my mom always tells me how good it would be for me to lose weight, but then on the other, she fixes a lot of fattening food? I mean, for the past two nights, I've had french fries as my side dish, cooked in a deep fat fryer, mind you. A fryer mom bought several months back. Now, that was NOT my idea.
I'll admit, I'm a picky eater.. she used to give me a lot of boiled potatoes, which I didn't really care for, except maybe with some ranch dressing (yeah, the regular, high calorie kind.) But it's not just that, she also cooks a lot of macaroni and cheese, but get this, she ADDS more macaroni to it, and puts way more milk than the recipe requires. I think one box, with NO extra would be enough for Jim and me.
I just don't get it.. she keep sabotaging my efforts at dieting, and I'm not even sure if she realizes what she's doing.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not blaming my weight problems on her (although I'm sure the thing she does do no really help), I'm, when you get down to it, it's my fault I'm overweight and have done more than my share to keep myself that way, but still... all these mixed messages make me confused.
Been thinking a bit, and I have a doctor's appointment coming up soon, I'm going to talk to him about trying a different depression medication. This will be like fourth or fifth, but still... I gotta do something, the episodes keep getting worse, and I need to find some way out of this pit of hopelessness.
Okay, got another idea in the job search front. Can not BELIEVE I didn't think of this earlier. Spoke to someone at work who's leaving the store to go to a position in St Louis. I asked her how she found out about the job in the first place and she said she'd read about it in a want ad in the online version of the city's newspaper.
Again, why didn't I think of that?
So, I'm gonna do some searching on the major cities nearby, see if they have online newspapers and what I might be able to find in that area. Hopefully something will come up.
Okay, back, had to stop this to go up to dinner... I don't feel so great, my stomach is bugging me, I ate too much and now I'm all "blah" feeling. I really don't get this.. why is it on the one hand my mom always tells me how good it would be for me to lose weight, but then on the other, she fixes a lot of fattening food? I mean, for the past two nights, I've had french fries as my side dish, cooked in a deep fat fryer, mind you. A fryer mom bought several months back. Now, that was NOT my idea.
I'll admit, I'm a picky eater.. she used to give me a lot of boiled potatoes, which I didn't really care for, except maybe with some ranch dressing (yeah, the regular, high calorie kind.) But it's not just that, she also cooks a lot of macaroni and cheese, but get this, she ADDS more macaroni to it, and puts way more milk than the recipe requires. I think one box, with NO extra would be enough for Jim and me.
I just don't get it.. she keep sabotaging my efforts at dieting, and I'm not even sure if she realizes what she's doing.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not blaming my weight problems on her (although I'm sure the thing she does do no really help), I'm, when you get down to it, it's my fault I'm overweight and have done more than my share to keep myself that way, but still... all these mixed messages make me confused.
Been thinking a bit, and I have a doctor's appointment coming up soon, I'm going to talk to him about trying a different depression medication. This will be like fourth or fifth, but still... I gotta do something, the episodes keep getting worse, and I need to find some way out of this pit of hopelessness.
Okay, got another idea in the job search front. Can not BELIEVE I didn't think of this earlier. Spoke to someone at work who's leaving the store to go to a position in St Louis. I asked her how she found out about the job in the first place and she said she'd read about it in a want ad in the online version of the city's newspaper.
Again, why didn't I think of that?
So, I'm gonna do some searching on the major cities nearby, see if they have online newspapers and what I might be able to find in that area. Hopefully something will come up.