The weather and the whether
I had some shopping to do at a place that doesn't open until 9am, so I decided to run over there Saturday. The weather was kind of weird that day... it's been getting increasingly chilly of late, but today the was out, blasting everything with it's (to me) unnaturally bright rays. it's one of those weird scenarios where all the grass is dead, the trees are bare of leaves, and yet the sun is blazing away at you, making things way warmer then they should be. The clouds (what few there were) were staying completely out of the sun's path (vampire cloud, maybe?)
Anyway, it's just you know, kind of a surreal combination but I suppose it's better than those "endless grey" tableaus winter is so popular for.
Let's see.. what to write about? Not much going on here.. my parents invited me out to Ryan's for Thanksgiving dinner. We went there around five and it was surprisingly low key, I guess most of the people were at home. Strangest thing, our waiter was named John, and he actually looked a bit like my friend John, whom I've talked a bit about before in this journal.
Which reminds me, I haven't heard from John in awhile... I should drop him a note. Come to think of it, I also have yet to email Alice and see how she's doing. My manager spoke to her on the phone recently, she said Alice seems to be doing just fine (no surprise there really), and she got offered FOUR jobs within the first week (heck, I think maybe it was the first DAY she was out job hunting, but I could be wrong.) Again, no big surprise there, Alice is one of those friendly types who gets along easily with people (plus, I'd bet a lot of the people doing the hiring were male.) I think she's working as a waitress now or some such.
Don't know.. do I or do I not want to keep in touch with her? Part of me really doesn't... that may sound horrible, but I don't know.. seems like there's always the same pattern with friends, well, people I know, who move away. I'll write, get a reply, I'll write again, nothing. Wait several weeks, maybe a few months, write again, briefly reply, I write back nothing, and then I just get all depressed and stuff thinking about all the numerous friends/acquaintances who, for whatever reason, I don't see anymore. I just think maybe I'm just better off just letting them go and trying to think on other things.
Besides, were we really friends? I mean, we talked sometimes.. hung out together in the park once, but I don't know... course, maybe it would have been more if I hadn't fucked things up as I had, but even before The Incident where I screwed things up, I always felt like I was "last pick" as far as people she wanted to interact with. I mean, if it was just the two of us, usually we'd chat pretty well, but if I came in and there were construction guys in the main lobby, she'd chat extensively with them before me.
Maybe she felt a bit uncomfortable around cause she knew I had a crush on her and she figured the inevitable day would come when she'd have to give the "You're a nice guy, buut..." speech. I mean, yeah, I did have feelings for her, but, I understand she was dating (and later engaged) to someone else and that, even if she wasn't, that she didn't think of me as anything other than a friend and, while not exactly thrilled at the idea, I at least accepted it.
Anyway, it's just you know, kind of a surreal combination but I suppose it's better than those "endless grey" tableaus winter is so popular for.
Let's see.. what to write about? Not much going on here.. my parents invited me out to Ryan's for Thanksgiving dinner. We went there around five and it was surprisingly low key, I guess most of the people were at home. Strangest thing, our waiter was named John, and he actually looked a bit like my friend John, whom I've talked a bit about before in this journal.
Which reminds me, I haven't heard from John in awhile... I should drop him a note. Come to think of it, I also have yet to email Alice and see how she's doing. My manager spoke to her on the phone recently, she said Alice seems to be doing just fine (no surprise there really), and she got offered FOUR jobs within the first week (heck, I think maybe it was the first DAY she was out job hunting, but I could be wrong.) Again, no big surprise there, Alice is one of those friendly types who gets along easily with people (plus, I'd bet a lot of the people doing the hiring were male.) I think she's working as a waitress now or some such.
Don't know.. do I or do I not want to keep in touch with her? Part of me really doesn't... that may sound horrible, but I don't know.. seems like there's always the same pattern with friends, well, people I know, who move away. I'll write, get a reply, I'll write again, nothing. Wait several weeks, maybe a few months, write again, briefly reply, I write back nothing, and then I just get all depressed and stuff thinking about all the numerous friends/acquaintances who, for whatever reason, I don't see anymore. I just think maybe I'm just better off just letting them go and trying to think on other things.
Besides, were we really friends? I mean, we talked sometimes.. hung out together in the park once, but I don't know... course, maybe it would have been more if I hadn't fucked things up as I had, but even before The Incident where I screwed things up, I always felt like I was "last pick" as far as people she wanted to interact with. I mean, if it was just the two of us, usually we'd chat pretty well, but if I came in and there were construction guys in the main lobby, she'd chat extensively with them before me.
Maybe she felt a bit uncomfortable around cause she knew I had a crush on her and she figured the inevitable day would come when she'd have to give the "You're a nice guy, buut..." speech. I mean, yeah, I did have feelings for her, but, I understand she was dating (and later engaged) to someone else and that, even if she wasn't, that she didn't think of me as anything other than a friend and, while not exactly thrilled at the idea, I at least accepted it.