Tomorrow's the big day
Monday is the busiest day of my week, I usually work (which sucks) and I also have the most classes (from 11 to 6:50p) Afterward I'm going to St Joseph for an overnight stay. I'll be using the CPAP mask this time. It's supposed to continuously pump oxygen into your mouth and nose, and prevent your breathing from stopping during the night. I REALLY hope it works, if nothing, I could use a good nights rest for a change.
Speaking of which, been groggy and whatnot for most of the weekend. Had Saturday off and wasted most of it lying around in bed. I dunno, strange thing about days off, I feel like I WANT to do something, but have no idea what. I want go somewhere, but where? And for what? (sighs) Times like this I wish I had friends.
In other news.. I dunno, I try, I honestly try to stay positive and do my best, but the depressive thoughts keep getting worse. I think I REALLY need to see someone, soon. Sadly, I can't see the one doctor that my previous counselor recommended cause our schedules don't match, and the girl in charge of trying to assign a counselor to someone is away on freaking jury duty!
Dammit, I feel so fucking alone in this. My thoughts are getting worse, having more and more suicidial thoughts. I feel like I'm falling apart and no one notices or gives a damn. It's like need to do something drastic before anyone really notices... (sighs)
Speaking of which, been groggy and whatnot for most of the weekend. Had Saturday off and wasted most of it lying around in bed. I dunno, strange thing about days off, I feel like I WANT to do something, but have no idea what. I want go somewhere, but where? And for what? (sighs) Times like this I wish I had friends.
In other news.. I dunno, I try, I honestly try to stay positive and do my best, but the depressive thoughts keep getting worse. I think I REALLY need to see someone, soon. Sadly, I can't see the one doctor that my previous counselor recommended cause our schedules don't match, and the girl in charge of trying to assign a counselor to someone is away on freaking jury duty!
Dammit, I feel so fucking alone in this. My thoughts are getting worse, having more and more suicidial thoughts. I feel like I'm falling apart and no one notices or gives a damn. It's like need to do something drastic before anyone really notices... (sighs)