a brand new day in a life that you hate

[m_alissa]

brittany just left...we had some good conversations. i told her some things that i've never shared with anyone before...and never expected to. it's good to know i'm not the only one who feels this way...i was beginning to worry. i still dont know whats going on. or why. im sick of trying to make myself happy. it never works.

i'm sorry for everyone who has to listen to my constant complaints and or negativity

i cannot help it. and no, you dont understand.

"this is the price you pay for loss of control"

i give up. i'm not "okay"