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I'm still depressed because of Richard. When I went over to his house on Sunday he sat there and played video games. We don't get to spend much time together. So i begged him to go to the beach with me. and we didn't have much time and he only went to Wesco to get me a water while I was locked out of my car because he wanted a smoke. so he would rather smoke than be around me. and he didn't even ask how I was feeling or how my procedure was when he called afterwords and didn't visit. No one like to be reliable to me do they. I'm tired of relationships where i'm doing everything. And he gets mad at me for being upset about it. Why do I still push myself through this pain with him. I guess its because I love him. I have for a while. but a relationship needs more than one person that is REALLY trying.