BSG vid: The Ledge

[m_a_r_i_k_s]

I've finally finished making this Lee video. It's been the main project for me since autumn 2007 and it took me about three months to make. Now I feel kind of fagged out emotionally but relatively satisfied, which is nice - I think one of the most pleasant moments of the process for a vidder is when you give the final touches to your work and you

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[m_a_r_i_k_s]

I particularly love that you included the twitch from 33 - it showed that even in the midst of sweeping events, there were things happening on the smallest levels with him.

Oh, I love that twitch of muscles on his face, it’s short, it’s barely perceptible, but it speaks volumes).

You've woven in a lot of moments that have significance it's easy to miss if you aren't paying attention in canon...

Thank you :D

and I think in a lot of ways, that's the story of Lee. Like Paya's eyes staring out as she clings to a doll or Shevon getting ready to leave when he's asleep. Like the focus on Tyrol at the bar in TAB, working as a metaphor for just how out of his depth Lee really is.

On the technical front... I think that perhaps my favourite section is where the song talks of him living alone, living in a cage, and you mix colour, negative and black and white together, with echoed pauses and oblique shots. I don't know why, but that just feels so much like Lee to me.

If you don’t stop naming moments and things in this vid so dear to me, I think I’ll have a heart attack because of unbecoming joy :D

And yet there are echoes throughout of just how much of Lee's thoughts and standards are about himself; even when he feels contempt for others, there's a thread there for himself as well.

You took the thought right out of my mouth, I mean out of the video clips, being my tools in this case)). And I’m actually grinning like a Cheshire Cat :D

Anyway... the bottom line is that I love this vid; I'm not sure how often I can watch it, because it's so strong, almost... visceral.

So… maybe you should spare your nervous system from the stress and discomfort the vid may inflict? :-p

I don't know how you manage to keep going from strength to strength, but you manage it. More than that, you make it look easy.

Thank you… :) In many respects I manage to do it because of my bsg-obsession demanding some way out; because of the richest material, freedom of thoughts and emotional experiences that the show offers to its viewers and vidmakers in particular; and in many ways - because of the encouragement I get from people who watch the vids I make. But as a matter of fact, if there weren’t such few “readers” as yourself, catching not only the essence but nuances, I would’ve probably long as throttled down and wouldn’t give myself trouble to go trough walls and delve into the characters psyche. Because, you know, if there’s no one to share these strong feelings and thoughts with, than what’s the point?

I know that if I were to write a post about the vids I made so far and to name the most underappreciated by the audience video, it would definitely be The Ledge. But then, when I started working on it, I knew the reaction wouldn’t be very passionate. I’m not surprised because Lee is the subject of this video, and he’s always been and will always be a “chamber character” in a way; the one who’s lurved as much as he’s hated, the one who’s being blamed, bashed and underestimated a lot of the times.
I’m not disappointed in the slightest ‘cause those who have watched and commented have shared this infinite journey in Lee with me and those who haven’t left feedback felt what I wanted to deliver, at least in some way, I’m sure about that. And in the end, that’s the only thing that matters.