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Hmm, I suppose I ought to make this quick and be going to bed now.
But I'm taking a look at all of your entries, how how they're so self depricating and how this utter loathing for yourselves stains the words of all your entries, and I just don't know how to feel about them. At first, I'm a tad angry. How can you guys not see how talented you are, and how many opportunities you have, and what amazing people you are? Of course then I just hate myself for being MAD at you people, because then I feel completely hypocritical and just terrible in general.
But then after a while I just feel downright cocky. I'm not sure if this is good or bad, but I see myself, and I think I have a tad more self esteem, and I feel bad for it. I think, "Well, if these wonderful people aren't saying or thinking they're wondeful, then I'm just downright conceited for not not liking myself." Sure, there are some things that I absolutely HATE about myself, but I don't hate everything.
And I know this sounds weird, but then I want to be like you guys. I want to have problems and I want to have no self esteem and I want to feel and have these things because it'll make me feel more modest. :-\
But I'm taking a look at all of your entries, how how they're so self depricating and how this utter loathing for yourselves stains the words of all your entries, and I just don't know how to feel about them. At first, I'm a tad angry. How can you guys not see how talented you are, and how many opportunities you have, and what amazing people you are? Of course then I just hate myself for being MAD at you people, because then I feel completely hypocritical and just terrible in general.
But then after a while I just feel downright cocky. I'm not sure if this is good or bad, but I see myself, and I think I have a tad more self esteem, and I feel bad for it. I think, "Well, if these wonderful people aren't saying or thinking they're wondeful, then I'm just downright conceited for not not liking myself." Sure, there are some things that I absolutely HATE about myself, but I don't hate everything.
And I know this sounds weird, but then I want to be like you guys. I want to have problems and I want to have no self esteem and I want to feel and have these things because it'll make me feel more modest. :-\