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So my family made the 4th this huge event this being the first 4th of July in the new house, it being JJ's first 4th, and everyone being able to attend...
except ME.
Where was I? I was working from 3-11:30pm. Was it busy? NO. Did they let me close early or even give me that option? NO. They didn't even bring us any fireworks. All I wanted was a sparkler...or something. Some sort of flashy light thingy to hypnotize me out of the bad mood I was in for the good first half of my shift. All I got to see through drive-thru window were a few illegal fireworks being set off every so often throughout the night. All 3 of us girls just mopingly sat or stood by the drive-thru window and would wait for some sort of something to light up the air all night. It was really sad. I'm trying to remember how many people came in between probably 6-11pm and i'm pretty sure I could count them on my hands. Oh well, it's all over now, i'm not bitter anymore and at least now I can be happy that I got paid time and a half to do nothing.
I also "cheated" on my diet last night. Now normally this would be like a traumatizing thing for me....i'd be mad at the world and mad at myself, but i'm okay with it. I'm okay with it and I think that's showing how much i'm really able to control this diet of mine. In the past i'd have these planned cheat days and it would be like an all day binge pretty much and it'd be so hard to go back on the diet and sometimes take me a good 3-4 days to get back on. Not anymore. I was good all day not giving in to all this junk food at work and when I came home I had some Lumpia and a couple cookies and i'd never been happier. I didn't binge, and I ate just enough to make me full and thoroughly happy. I deserve it. And today is a new day and I feel no need to eat all of the leftover goodies in the fridge and freezer and cabinets. I'm just gonna eat my low carb cereal, take a run, and go to work.
I think i'm really coming into my own and i'm really starting to feel confident and be proud of myself. I'm taking care of business at work. I might find out today if I got the promotion. (cross your fingers!) I'm sticking to my diet and exercise. Which by the way if anyone is wondering, i did a weigh in and i've lost 25 pounds since the end of April and gained a lot of happiness and willpower along the way. (Go me? :) ) I have a wonderful family and boyfriend who are supportive and I am forever grateful for that. I have so many wonderful things to look forward to in my career as i'm gaining all my confidence, I have all this willpower to stick to this diet for the sole purpose of proving to MYSELF that I can do it and I WILL do it, I have a wonderful family that is forever giving and understanding, and I have a wonderful life to look forward to in the future in all that I WILL have accomplished and have my boyfriend be there in the end to enjoy it all with me :)
<3 you all!
...and, i'm off!
except ME.
Where was I? I was working from 3-11:30pm. Was it busy? NO. Did they let me close early or even give me that option? NO. They didn't even bring us any fireworks. All I wanted was a sparkler...or something. Some sort of flashy light thingy to hypnotize me out of the bad mood I was in for the good first half of my shift. All I got to see through drive-thru window were a few illegal fireworks being set off every so often throughout the night. All 3 of us girls just mopingly sat or stood by the drive-thru window and would wait for some sort of something to light up the air all night. It was really sad. I'm trying to remember how many people came in between probably 6-11pm and i'm pretty sure I could count them on my hands. Oh well, it's all over now, i'm not bitter anymore and at least now I can be happy that I got paid time and a half to do nothing.
I also "cheated" on my diet last night. Now normally this would be like a traumatizing thing for me....i'd be mad at the world and mad at myself, but i'm okay with it. I'm okay with it and I think that's showing how much i'm really able to control this diet of mine. In the past i'd have these planned cheat days and it would be like an all day binge pretty much and it'd be so hard to go back on the diet and sometimes take me a good 3-4 days to get back on. Not anymore. I was good all day not giving in to all this junk food at work and when I came home I had some Lumpia and a couple cookies and i'd never been happier. I didn't binge, and I ate just enough to make me full and thoroughly happy. I deserve it. And today is a new day and I feel no need to eat all of the leftover goodies in the fridge and freezer and cabinets. I'm just gonna eat my low carb cereal, take a run, and go to work.
I think i'm really coming into my own and i'm really starting to feel confident and be proud of myself. I'm taking care of business at work. I might find out today if I got the promotion. (cross your fingers!) I'm sticking to my diet and exercise. Which by the way if anyone is wondering, i did a weigh in and i've lost 25 pounds since the end of April and gained a lot of happiness and willpower along the way. (Go me? :) ) I have a wonderful family and boyfriend who are supportive and I am forever grateful for that. I have so many wonderful things to look forward to in my career as i'm gaining all my confidence, I have all this willpower to stick to this diet for the sole purpose of proving to MYSELF that I can do it and I WILL do it, I have a wonderful family that is forever giving and understanding, and I have a wonderful life to look forward to in the future in all that I WILL have accomplished and have my boyfriend be there in the end to enjoy it all with me :)
<3 you all!
...and, i'm off!