Dec 31, 2004 02:17
Dear @#%^&$%!,
It aint fading, I gotta let it out...
You came into my life, Without a single thing, I gave into your ways which left me nothing..Ive given empty smiles. Ive dealt with all your games. I wish you'd bet right now, I had to let you win. Wont you get the fuck out of my face, NOW! I scream without a sound. How could you take away...everything that I was! You made me a fucken slave, your face that I despise. Your heart inside thats gray, I came today to say...Your fucked up in everyway! I cant stand the sight of you. I cant stand what you put me through. Your lifes a lie that you hide. Is it that terrible being you inside?? I cant stand the thought of you, I cant stand all the things you do. Feelings haze as they cut down my spine. My heart is breaking,
you really ripped it out. You take the pleasure watching as I claw my
way out. I take this time to let out whats inside because I will break. Sometimes I wish you would die. You begged and stole my pride and all this hate is bottled up inside. Skin cold with fear, feel it when we touch. Outside I know you, but inside im fucked. Can you see it in me, skin cold from touch. Each day confronted with what I have done. You pull me closer, I push you away. You tell me its okay, I cant help but feel the pain.
I hate you
I loved you
I feel so helpless
Why is it you?
RIPPING MY INSIDES EACH TIME I AM WITH YOU!?
I would like to search inside for all the things that you will hide. I keep asking, whats your lie?