from a good mood to a crappy one
For the last month or so I've been talking to this guy Steve online. He goes to MSU, like me. He's a sophomore, incredibly cute, funny, easy to talk to..etc. Monday night we went out to dinner and we had a great time. We continued talking online, and saying we were going to get together again soon. This week was incredibly busy for both of us. Finally last night we both had a relatively calm night, except that his frat was throwing a party. I headed over to his frat house around midnight to watch a movie. When I got there it was slightly awkward, but it soon went away. At the end of the first movie he got up to put another one in and when he sat back down he put his arm around me. During the whole second move we cuddled and held hands for a few seconds at a time. I was really happy because I think I might really like him. If I got to know him more I really think he'd be good for me. When the second movie ended it was around 3:30am and I really didnt' want to walk back to my dorm alone so when he asked if I just wanted to spend the night I agreed. He unfolded his futon and we layed down, and started cuddling again. We watched a couple of shows on tv and then we turned off the tv to sleep. Then he started rubbing my back, and he kissed my cheek. After that I kissed him and we made out for a while. When I woke up this morning I walked back to my dorm and I was so happy. I was bursting! I didn't talk to him til about 4:30 this afternoon. I know it's an online conversation and you can't tell emotions through a cord...but he seemed distant. It made me instantly sad. And now I can't get out of that mood. I think he's the kind of guy that plays "the game"...I'm not that kind of girl. If I want to hang out I'll ask. But I don't want to come on too strong..ahhh! I HATE THE GAME..but the player is such a great guy! I'm not sure what to do. I want to spend a lot of time with him, but I can't come out and say that. It might scare him away. And I don't even know how he feels about me. He told me that he liked me, and if that changed that he'd come right out and tell me which I respect and admire. I just wish I knew what was going on in his head...I'll keep on wishing!