Want, need, acceptance...

[m3lissa320]

I want to write in this more... everyday even. I want to be able to look back when I'm feeling lost. I want to be able to watch myself change and grow. I want to be able to vent, to get everything that I keep inside... out. I want to see that people care. I want to know that I have support. I want to help someone else if I can

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Re: long comment sorry

[m3lissa320]

I think that was probably the best comment I could have read. I agree about the "my sister is my best friend" thing, and I feel like as we get older we're getting closer because there's a lot more things that we can relate to with eachother. Like with you and Steven and me and Eric and this whole thing about dad. It's really nice to know that I'm not going through this alone and I'm really glad that I have you to go through it with. I mean the support that I get from Mom and Eric and Cherie is unbelieveable, but it's so different to talk to you about it and to know that you know EXACTLY what I'm talking about because you were there. Thanks for being so honest about your feelings with me, it really helps becuase I honestly don't think I could go through this on my own... I mean I wouldn't be on my own per say - but in the way I just described... you know what I mean! lol As far as the looking up to me thing... I really appreciate that and it kind of surprizes me, but in a way it kind of makes more sense to me. I've always looked up to you, even when we were little and I hated you and Em and Wes and I would gang up on you... I did feel bad sometimes but I always thought you were really tough for just dealing with it and not going and telling like anyone else would have. I mean it's not fair that you just had to put up with it... but you know what I mean. I think that's why us being so close now makes sense too, becuase we both respect eachother and look up to eachother. I'm excited to come home for Christmas and I'll see you soon. Thanks again for everything, for being honest and for just being there. Love you.