Why do we make them so important?
Girls... why do we hold them up so high? Why do we act like they are the greatest things to gace this planet? Like they are the end all and be all of our lives and problems?
Notice though, I said why do WE act like... why do WE... - we do this to ourselves. The worse part... we willingly come back for more.
For some people that's all that matters. For some people love equals success. Love equals true happiness. Marraige and kids equals fullfillment. And for those people life without any of these things feels like torture.
I'm so tired of playing the game, I want to quit.
The ride is making me sick and I want to get off.
But I'll start up and new game... and I'll get back on the same ride tomorrow, and I already know it.
Things are weird... I probly made them that way in my head (my head... god that's a scary place) but he's not helping.
I don't know... I guess I just don't understand the point. Things are good, we get along amazing, we're attracted to eachother... things are going insanely slow... but I just can't get it out of my head that I'm leaving in 2/3 months. It makes me think 'what's the point?' and I hate it.
People are telling me to just have fun. Just go with it. Worst comes to worst you'll learn what you don't want in a boyfriend, that dating around is healthy and you shouldn't be attatched to just one person anyway.
But, I don't know... for some reason I just can't. For some reason, for me, it needs to be all or nothing. For some reason, I am an idiot.
uuuuuuggggghhhhhh i'm annoying to myself!!!!!!!!
"it's because you and me... we're hopeless romantics. we know it's stupid and dumb, but deep down we want something just like the notebook and how to lose a guy in 10 days to happen to us... we want our ryan gosling's and matthew mcconaughey's." - michelle
Notice though, I said why do WE act like... why do WE... - we do this to ourselves. The worse part... we willingly come back for more.
For some people that's all that matters. For some people love equals success. Love equals true happiness. Marraige and kids equals fullfillment. And for those people life without any of these things feels like torture.
I'm so tired of playing the game, I want to quit.
The ride is making me sick and I want to get off.
But I'll start up and new game... and I'll get back on the same ride tomorrow, and I already know it.
Things are weird... I probly made them that way in my head (my head... god that's a scary place) but he's not helping.
I don't know... I guess I just don't understand the point. Things are good, we get along amazing, we're attracted to eachother... things are going insanely slow... but I just can't get it out of my head that I'm leaving in 2/3 months. It makes me think 'what's the point?' and I hate it.
People are telling me to just have fun. Just go with it. Worst comes to worst you'll learn what you don't want in a boyfriend, that dating around is healthy and you shouldn't be attatched to just one person anyway.
But, I don't know... for some reason I just can't. For some reason, for me, it needs to be all or nothing. For some reason, I am an idiot.
uuuuuuggggghhhhhh i'm annoying to myself!!!!!!!!
"it's because you and me... we're hopeless romantics. we know it's stupid and dumb, but deep down we want something just like the notebook and how to lose a guy in 10 days to happen to us... we want our ryan gosling's and matthew mcconaughey's." - michelle