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WHY THE FUCK EVERYONE HAS TO YELL AND BE MAD AT ME AT THE SAME NITE! I CANT TAKE THIS, IT IS TOO MUCH, YOU KNOW WHO U ARE AND U KNOW WHAT IM SORRY THAT IM A FUCKING BAD ASS FRIEND BUT U KNOW WHAT I DONT GIVE A FUCKIN DAMN ANYMORE, IT HURTS ME TO FUCKING SAY THAT BUT U KNOW WHAT IF IM THAT MUCH OF A FUCKEN MISTAKE FINE I DONT FUCKIN GIVE A SHIT AND IM DONE...A FAREWELL TO YOU!! NEXT PERSON, IM SORRY IM NOT STRONG ENOUGH FOR YOU, IM SORRY I DO FEEL BAD, IM SORRY I CANT HOLD IT IN, IM SORRY THAT I CANT JUST WAKE UP AND EVERYTHING BE OKAY THE NEXT MORNING, IM SORRY IM NOT PERFECT AND DAMN STRAIGHT I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE SAY THAT CUZ I KNOW VERY DAMN WELL IM NOT AND IM SORRY YOU ARE DEPRESSED, IM SORRY THAT I HAVE TRIED EVERYTHING IN THE WHOLE DAMN WORLD TO HELP YOU, IM SORRY THAT YOU TURN ME DOWN EVERYTIME, I WANT TO HELP YOU SOO MUCH, BUT I CANT UNLESS YOU HELP ME HELP YOU, NEXT, I WOULD LIKE TO SAY I DONT KNOW EXACTLY WHAT WAS SAID OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT BUT WHY WOULD PEOPLE GO BEHIND MY BACK TO TALK ABOUT ME ESPECIALLY IF I DIDNT DO ANYTHING, THEN I HAVE MORE PPL JUST YELLIN AT ME FOR WHAT PEOPLE SAID I SAID OR WHATEVER, NEXT, IM SORRY U THINK THAT I DONT LIKE YOU ANYMORE, ARE U CRAZY? YOU WERE MY BB4L! JUST BECAUSE I HAD TO BABYSIT INSTEAD OF BEIN WITH U IS CRAP YOU ARE AWESOME AND IM SORRY U FEEL THAT WAY, BUT IM ALWAYS HERE FOR U BABE~, NEXT I WOULD LIKE TO SAY I DONT HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT I DID WRONG FOR U TO JUST BE PSH WE ARENT FRIENDS AND I FUCKIN HATE YOUR FUCKING GUTS AND YOU CAN GO TO HELL... I AM JUST LIKE WHAT? I NEVER DID ANYTHING WRONG AND AGAIN IT COMES TO ME BEING A BAD FRIEND... I GUESS I WILL NEVER HAVE ANY FRIENDS THAT WONT BE MAD AT ME SO U KNOW WHAT IF U JUST DONT WANT TO HANG OUT WITH ME BECAUSE IM SUCH A BAD ASS FRIEND SO DONT IM SORRY I DONT KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY.. WELL THERE IS ONE MORE AND ALL I HAVE TO SAY IS THAT IM NOT MAD I DONT GET MAD UNLESS YOU DO OR SAY SOMETHING THAT CANT BE RETURNED AND MAKE ME FEEL BAD AND BELIEVE ME IM NOT MAD AT YOU, I KNOW WHAT YOU SAID WAS TRUE, BUT THATS LIFE, I DONT HOLD GRUGES AND YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT BY NOW! IM SO DONE TYPING~ SO GOODBYE PPL WHO JUST WANT TO BE LIKE ITS JUST MEL, OF COURSE I NEED YOU, BUT YOU DONT NEED ME SO I UNDERSTAND, I JUST GET IN YOUR WAY SO PLEASE JUST MOVE ME. I FEEL LIKE IM A FUCKIN RUG~SO PLEASE STEP ON ME SOME MORE and thats all i have to say, and im sorry if you think im a bad person for writin all this crap it had to be said... i just had to say something
anyways today was good until i got home, i went to the mall with timmy and johnnie and it was fun, hehe kb toys, lol, well then of course i came home and it was kinda funny now that i think of it, one person after another, just kept making me feel crappy, just crappy...o well... irs done with and im finished im goin to sleep i was gunna go by allyses but i just dont feel like it.
anyways today was good until i got home, i went to the mall with timmy and johnnie and it was fun, hehe kb toys, lol, well then of course i came home and it was kinda funny now that i think of it, one person after another, just kept making me feel crappy, just crappy...o well... irs done with and im finished im goin to sleep i was gunna go by allyses but i just dont feel like it.