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It's one thing to be capricious and turn responsible but, you're never prepared to fall back in to your remiss ways. Doesn't feel very good at all. Your first instinct is always to try and just forget a problem but that will never help. I hate feeling like every time I spend 5 dollars... it's technically just 5 more dollars I'll be in debt. I've wanted so badly to start the job that I've comfortably been lead to believing I would have. I'm working at a place I actually hate more then calltech which I didn't think would happen. BUT I'M STICKING IT OUT. I even passed on a better paying job with more hours because I felt it would look better if I just stuck it out instead of bouncing around. I will turn my fucking life back around if its the only thing I accomplish this year. I will not have debts. I will be happy.