Meds
Today was the last day of Cymbalta. I've been on 30mg (whatever) for the past ten days. Friday of last week I added 20mg of Prozac to that. From today on it'll just be the 20mg of Prozac. I've got another check up with the MD in three weeks to see how it's working as well as an appointment with Not Scott next week.
Coming off the cymbalta was weird. I was expecting the same sort of side effects that I get when increasing dosages - headaches, insomnia, brain twitches. Instead I ended up with lots of extra nervous energy (that took a little bit to finally pinpoint) and very little focus. Very little. As in forgetting what I was saying in the middle of sentences or being derailed by a shiny object. It's been interesting.
Both B and Z have been amazing. Because this is temporary it's been easy to shake off and all three of us are quick to laugh at the randomness that is my brain. I honestly think laughter is the only way I survive. Things might suck but as long as you can find the humor then it'll end up ok. Now it's the next stage of chemical changes. I get frustrated because I don't feel "normal" yet and have to remind myself that there's still another month before I'll even know how this drug works with my brain. My instant gratification gets me in trouble.
So far, I don't have any side effects that can be pinpointed. Sleeping ok (if too much). Slight weight gain is always expected (and also VERY frustrating). Started the gym at the beginning of October and I've been getting to two or three classes a week. The past week is shot since Z has been home. I've gained over 10lbs. ... wtf. Blaming meds because I can't honestly think of anything else that's changed.
I asked B if I could get a pez dispenser to hand out prozac every morning. Zoe, Indy and I all take it, just at different dosages. He said no.
Trying to keep track of everything the past month has been difficult. I am so far behind in any of the fun things I was doing. Pictures, crafts, anything that isn't mandatory has pretty much taken a back seat. Getting up and dressed is good. Getting out of the house is better. Not forgetting the couple of things that MUST be done is gold star worthy. Here's to hoping these things start getting easier.
October is nearly over. November already has a few plans set and some Thanksgiving hopes. December will be here in a blink and then it's 2018. Just like that and another year is over. I know there's science behind why things start moving faster as you get older but I really wasn't expecting it so soon. In my head I'm still a clueless 20 year old that has no idea what day it is. The idea that this is how many "adults" feel is concerning. No one has a clue what they're doing. Keeps things exciting!
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