Lots of new things
time. 5.57 pm
day. monday
tunes. unwritten law - geronimo
talking to. my mommy XD
dressed in. wife beater, gray sweat pants
feeling. relaxed
I don't know what I have and haven't told everybody. So I'm just gonna start blabbin.
I'm going to school in Kirksville now. It's great. Lots of hot guys XD. LoL. But David and I are back together. He lives at Kat's now. It's cool. :D. I'm pretty popular in Kville. Most of the people that talk to me, like me. Which is a lot of people. LOL. UM... I pierced my lip. It's hot. -nods- yesm.. way hot XD. We're moving to Kirksville pretty soon. My dad and I are going to sign a lease for an apartment above Stone Creations up there. It's a nice place. !!!!! woo.
My mom finally got a computer and is figuring out how to work it and shit, so now we're chatting. Which is rad!
I got to talk to Josh for a hella long time last night. That was the bomb. I cammed for him for awhile, then he called and I kept camming. More of it after he called was me laying on my bed drawing, but yeah. LoL. He only got like 3 hours of sleep, so I feel bad for keeping him up, but I think it was great that we got to talk. We figured a lot of stuff out about us and everything.
=/ um..... Geez.. I have such a boring life. LoL. I need a new livejournal but I can't find anyone who has anymore extra codes. OH and I got a new screen name. It's grungexxxcore . Yup, its a kick ass name XD!!!
EEEEE Me and Jen, David's Exgirlfriend, the one he dumped me for, are becoming friends. We went to a frat party - Sebastian's frat house - and hung for awhile. And I skipped lunch with her one day at school and went out. And uh... she offered to come pick me up today so we could go do something, but I didn't have the time because I was taking shit off of my walls and taking a bath and.. yeah all that. But it's all good.
As for me and David. Yeah, we got back together. Things aren't ALL bad. But I'm just not quite into it. I still think he wants Jen back. And I think he wants someone different. Not me. I don't know that he loves me. I thought he did. I trusted him and believed that he loved me. But ... now I just doubt everything. I'm trying really hard not to think about any of it, and usually I don't. I sit and look at him, or hold him and watch him while he sleeps, or when I kiss him or we make love or something, all I can think about is how lucky I am that he's mine. But... sometimes I'll sit here and think... you know, is he really mine? I really, truly, honestly... I don't know anymore. Sometimes I just wish he would have never come into my life. Sometimes I wish Dean would let him come back to Burlington, so he could leave Kirksville and I could forget the last couple months. But I can't. And Dean won't do that, and David wouldn't go back anyway. As bad as all of that sounds, I really do love David. I would do anything for him. And no matter how miserable I am, I always seem to be happy in some sense because of him. I dunno. I just wanna say fuck it and date someone else, but I can't do that. It would kill me too badly. Plus I wanna give things some time to heal. After I move to Kirksville, get my license Friday and get settled into everything, all of this new stuff, maybe things will be better again. I just need to give things time. Yes, TIME!!!
Hah, I'm a tard ass. I think I should just go. I've been writing for about 10 minutes and haven't really gotten anything actually said? I don't know. Maybe I have. I can't think right now. I'm off! Tah tah! <3
day. monday
tunes. unwritten law - geronimo
talking to. my mommy XD
dressed in. wife beater, gray sweat pants
feeling. relaxed
I don't know what I have and haven't told everybody. So I'm just gonna start blabbin.
I'm going to school in Kirksville now. It's great. Lots of hot guys XD. LoL. But David and I are back together. He lives at Kat's now. It's cool. :D. I'm pretty popular in Kville. Most of the people that talk to me, like me. Which is a lot of people. LOL. UM... I pierced my lip. It's hot. -nods- yesm.. way hot XD. We're moving to Kirksville pretty soon. My dad and I are going to sign a lease for an apartment above Stone Creations up there. It's a nice place. !!!!! woo.
My mom finally got a computer and is figuring out how to work it and shit, so now we're chatting. Which is rad!
I got to talk to Josh for a hella long time last night. That was the bomb. I cammed for him for awhile, then he called and I kept camming. More of it after he called was me laying on my bed drawing, but yeah. LoL. He only got like 3 hours of sleep, so I feel bad for keeping him up, but I think it was great that we got to talk. We figured a lot of stuff out about us and everything.
=/ um..... Geez.. I have such a boring life. LoL. I need a new livejournal but I can't find anyone who has anymore extra codes. OH and I got a new screen name. It's grungexxxcore . Yup, its a kick ass name XD!!!
EEEEE Me and Jen, David's Exgirlfriend, the one he dumped me for, are becoming friends. We went to a frat party - Sebastian's frat house - and hung for awhile. And I skipped lunch with her one day at school and went out. And uh... she offered to come pick me up today so we could go do something, but I didn't have the time because I was taking shit off of my walls and taking a bath and.. yeah all that. But it's all good.
As for me and David. Yeah, we got back together. Things aren't ALL bad. But I'm just not quite into it. I still think he wants Jen back. And I think he wants someone different. Not me. I don't know that he loves me. I thought he did. I trusted him and believed that he loved me. But ... now I just doubt everything. I'm trying really hard not to think about any of it, and usually I don't. I sit and look at him, or hold him and watch him while he sleeps, or when I kiss him or we make love or something, all I can think about is how lucky I am that he's mine. But... sometimes I'll sit here and think... you know, is he really mine? I really, truly, honestly... I don't know anymore. Sometimes I just wish he would have never come into my life. Sometimes I wish Dean would let him come back to Burlington, so he could leave Kirksville and I could forget the last couple months. But I can't. And Dean won't do that, and David wouldn't go back anyway. As bad as all of that sounds, I really do love David. I would do anything for him. And no matter how miserable I am, I always seem to be happy in some sense because of him. I dunno. I just wanna say fuck it and date someone else, but I can't do that. It would kill me too badly. Plus I wanna give things some time to heal. After I move to Kirksville, get my license Friday and get settled into everything, all of this new stuff, maybe things will be better again. I just need to give things time. Yes, TIME!!!
Hah, I'm a tard ass. I think I should just go. I've been writing for about 10 minutes and haven't really gotten anything actually said? I don't know. Maybe I have. I can't think right now. I'm off! Tah tah! <3