Starving
It's like I'm starving here lately. I know this will sound completely fucked up, but I starve for an intellagent conversation and a sense of fashion. I real sense of fashion. My own unique style. That no one else has. I want to be able to put things together that look good, but that are accepted in a certain way. I dress one of 2 ways right now really. "Hardcore" or "Preppy". And as much as I hate to admit it, I don't feel bad dressing preppy. I sound completely out of my fucking head I know. I guess I really don't fit any labels. It's amazing how this is just now really sinking in. LoL.
When I take in a deep breath I can smell my grandma's perfume. I think she just got out of the bath tub. It's an old woman, kind of fresh scent. It's weird how I can smell it so strongly. It's never that strong.
Me and David had a really connecting conversation last night. One of the only intellagent conversations I've been able to have lately. I want a never ending conversation about something meaningful. And that's what we had together last night. It amazes me how we connect like we do. I don't know. I've always thought relationships would go far, but never felt it was true. Now I not only think this will go somewhere, but I feel like it will. He and I just have something different. I've never had this kind of connection before. It's like, we read eachother's minds. Not necessarily that we think exactly alike, just that we know how the other feels about certain things. I'm not even sure where it comes from. The heart maybe? I don't know. I'm clueless.
Cody has a crush on me. That's hard to believe, but its true. LoL. I guess he has had for awhile, and he's just now spilling it again. Yeah, again. He used to, but he never did anything about it and never said anything until we started "hating" eachother. LoL. We faught a lot just to be annoying :D It was fun. And now he's all flirting with me. It's weird. I think he's just horny. LMFAO! But I'm gonna go to work with my dad tomorrow, go to Patty's and hang with her and Cody for awhile. Sense tomorrow is the only day I have left. Cause Tuesday is Ozzfest in KC and then Wednesday is school.. -cries-. I am definitely not looking forward to all the homework I'm going to end up having this year. But I can't say I completely hate the fact that the school year is returning. At least I'll have something else to do. Maybe even something more interesting to write about. LoL.
I bet I'm boring like anyone who actually reads this, so I'm off to put on my fake up :D L8r
When I take in a deep breath I can smell my grandma's perfume. I think she just got out of the bath tub. It's an old woman, kind of fresh scent. It's weird how I can smell it so strongly. It's never that strong.
Me and David had a really connecting conversation last night. One of the only intellagent conversations I've been able to have lately. I want a never ending conversation about something meaningful. And that's what we had together last night. It amazes me how we connect like we do. I don't know. I've always thought relationships would go far, but never felt it was true. Now I not only think this will go somewhere, but I feel like it will. He and I just have something different. I've never had this kind of connection before. It's like, we read eachother's minds. Not necessarily that we think exactly alike, just that we know how the other feels about certain things. I'm not even sure where it comes from. The heart maybe? I don't know. I'm clueless.
Cody has a crush on me. That's hard to believe, but its true. LoL. I guess he has had for awhile, and he's just now spilling it again. Yeah, again. He used to, but he never did anything about it and never said anything until we started "hating" eachother. LoL. We faught a lot just to be annoying :D It was fun. And now he's all flirting with me. It's weird. I think he's just horny. LMFAO! But I'm gonna go to work with my dad tomorrow, go to Patty's and hang with her and Cody for awhile. Sense tomorrow is the only day I have left. Cause Tuesday is Ozzfest in KC and then Wednesday is school.. -cries-. I am definitely not looking forward to all the homework I'm going to end up having this year. But I can't say I completely hate the fact that the school year is returning. At least I'll have something else to do. Maybe even something more interesting to write about. LoL.
I bet I'm boring like anyone who actually reads this, so I'm off to put on my fake up :D L8r