Tangled Thoughts
Sometimes my thoughts all tangle together. The one thing that can stop all my thoughts and clear my mind... is Tim. If I start thinking about him - nothing else matters anymore. His name just jumps around in my head. Everything is blissful when I have him. When I'm with him, talking to him, or thinking about him. I never thought I could ever love anyone this much. He took my heart almost a year ago. But he never had any idea. I could never tell him how I felt. I would DIE before I told him. It was purely by accident that I actually did tell him. Time was really running out and I needed a guest too take with me to a concert. So I asked him. When I asked, he said he could go and I was really happy. And I just kinda told him why. Oops! :) Sense then, everything has just kinda, fallen into place. Thinking about him never fails to make my whole body relax. My mind settles and I'm calm.
You know, in some ways, I really don't think he loves me as much as I do him. I know I've loved him for SO much longer than he's even had a CRUSH on me. So because of that its kinda understandable. I can't even comprehend how much I love him. There's no way he could. I'm actually kind of relieved about that though. I think he might get scared and run off if he knew even close as to how much I love him. He's amazing. And I would do anything for him. Anything - as long as he's smiling .
You know, in some ways, I really don't think he loves me as much as I do him. I know I've loved him for SO much longer than he's even had a CRUSH on me. So because of that its kinda understandable. I can't even comprehend how much I love him. There's no way he could. I'm actually kind of relieved about that though. I think he might get scared and run off if he knew even close as to how much I love him. He's amazing. And I would do anything for him. Anything - as long as he's smiling .