roses mean remember
wow! i thought i was going to become a blog addict again, but now i realize it's been almost a week since my last update... i'm surprised because these past days i've done nothing... at least nothing that would worth talking about in a dinner talk
actually several things have happened :)
and i have this weird cocktail of feelings that involve happiness, fear, bravery, frustration, pride, realization, more happiness and a little awkwardness...
two main events:
1) I went back to my middle school years and reached that goal I never could when i was 14 (back then i was kind of shy, especially when it comes to demonstrating sexuality or telling others about it)... the thing is, if you ever heard that "like a virgin" song from madonna mix it with the famous scene of rocky running up the steps in philadelphia's museum... and then you'll now exactly how i felt at that moment... but hold it! hold it! no sex, it was just kissing... REALLY HOT KISSING!
I must admit i felt like a whore thereafter since i've been mutually crushing with this other kid since last december, but then i calm myself down believing it was something i should've done 6 years ago and will (probably) never happen again :)
2) I deleted my ex from my friends in facebook... yes I did :)
it may seem like something that would mean nothing, but for me, it was actually an act of courage where i proved myself i am able to go on with my life without ever thinking about the what ifs, along with other really nice overcoming feelings...
it's actually kind of funny... i feel relieved...
about a month ago i was listening over and over this song called "i wish" by the barrio boyzz, which basically tells the story of a love that went away abruptly ... now i'm listening over and over a song from the same band called "no quiero verte llorar" (literally don't want to see you cry) that talks about not suffering anymore, being free and saying goodbye to a love that can't continue...
:)
actually several things have happened :)
and i have this weird cocktail of feelings that involve happiness, fear, bravery, frustration, pride, realization, more happiness and a little awkwardness...
two main events:
1) I went back to my middle school years and reached that goal I never could when i was 14 (back then i was kind of shy, especially when it comes to demonstrating sexuality or telling others about it)... the thing is, if you ever heard that "like a virgin" song from madonna mix it with the famous scene of rocky running up the steps in philadelphia's museum... and then you'll now exactly how i felt at that moment... but hold it! hold it! no sex, it was just kissing... REALLY HOT KISSING!
I must admit i felt like a whore thereafter since i've been mutually crushing with this other kid since last december, but then i calm myself down believing it was something i should've done 6 years ago and will (probably) never happen again :)
2) I deleted my ex from my friends in facebook... yes I did :)
it may seem like something that would mean nothing, but for me, it was actually an act of courage where i proved myself i am able to go on with my life without ever thinking about the what ifs, along with other really nice overcoming feelings...
it's actually kind of funny... i feel relieved...
about a month ago i was listening over and over this song called "i wish" by the barrio boyzz, which basically tells the story of a love that went away abruptly ... now i'm listening over and over a song from the same band called "no quiero verte llorar" (literally don't want to see you cry) that talks about not suffering anymore, being free and saying goodbye to a love that can't continue...
:)