Meaningful Entry coming up...
well where to begin......
Lets start off at the beginning of the summer.....I had been spending much time with my boyfriend and not to much time with my friends whom i should have. and well thats that in a nutshell...any way i have resently noticed that i had neglected one of my best friends in the world and even my bestest in my eyes.... though i will not say her name ...im sure anyone who knows me can guess... any way....
Here goes.... over the past few months since ive been mostly hanging out wit my boyfriend i have missed out on alot of things that had been going on with my friends.... and now i am paying for it emotionally.... my best friend and i have grown very much apart over the few months and it saddens me that it was my fault and not hers or ne one elses.... two people who basicly spent a whole year together goofing around and having fun have now pretty much spilt into two different people....me and her.....however she didnt realize how much i needed her.... over the past few months her and i have gotten into bickering fights and most consist of her saying that she doesnt really need me ne more...you'd get it if you knew us....ne way... but the truth is ...that it wasnt at all about her needing me...it was me needing her...and i have resently realized this.... she has been there the most and i really miss her.... we are still friends but not as close and i need her more than any thing.... she was wat kept me alive in tough times and was pushed me to go.... but now she doesnt need me as much and it hurts so much because i still need her... and i have tried... ya we still talk and hang out but its not enough we dont have that bond we used to...that bond that i need... she is my everything... she is the best person in the world and someone that i hold really high in my heart.... and well though this isnt making ne sense its hard to put into words how i feel.....
her name is steff and well i miss her and i miss us
Lets start off at the beginning of the summer.....I had been spending much time with my boyfriend and not to much time with my friends whom i should have. and well thats that in a nutshell...any way i have resently noticed that i had neglected one of my best friends in the world and even my bestest in my eyes.... though i will not say her name ...im sure anyone who knows me can guess... any way....
Here goes.... over the past few months since ive been mostly hanging out wit my boyfriend i have missed out on alot of things that had been going on with my friends.... and now i am paying for it emotionally.... my best friend and i have grown very much apart over the few months and it saddens me that it was my fault and not hers or ne one elses.... two people who basicly spent a whole year together goofing around and having fun have now pretty much spilt into two different people....me and her.....however she didnt realize how much i needed her.... over the past few months her and i have gotten into bickering fights and most consist of her saying that she doesnt really need me ne more...you'd get it if you knew us....ne way... but the truth is ...that it wasnt at all about her needing me...it was me needing her...and i have resently realized this.... she has been there the most and i really miss her.... we are still friends but not as close and i need her more than any thing.... she was wat kept me alive in tough times and was pushed me to go.... but now she doesnt need me as much and it hurts so much because i still need her... and i have tried... ya we still talk and hang out but its not enough we dont have that bond we used to...that bond that i need... she is my everything... she is the best person in the world and someone that i hold really high in my heart.... and well though this isnt making ne sense its hard to put into words how i feel.....
her name is steff and well i miss her and i miss us