fuck
So I realized.....
I'm not myself anymore. I haven't been for a really long time actually. I'm not the same Sabrina i was in New York at all. I was really different. I never gave a shit about anything, i did whatever i pleased without caring what people thought about it. I knew how to have lots of fun. I was a different person inside. Now I don't even know who i am. I hang out with Jamie all the time and she doesn't even know the real Sabrina. She knows this fucking weird thing i've become since moving out here. I really hope me going to Cali will help bring th eold me back. I think it has to do with the people i'm around. I miss my friends in n.y. I miss my boys so fucking much, i never gave a fuck when i was around them i was me, begining to end. I was funny, witty, outgoing, just everything i'm not now. Now i'm just fucking weird. I hate it. FUCK! I want to be me again, I want that feeling of freedom i once had. I dno't want to hold back anymore. I just want to be fucking happy. I miss those who brought out the real me. <3