St Lucia.
So I'm here.
And I'm working.
Or supposed to be.
I'm just doing basic admin at the moment, making schedules and such, trying to arrange my workshops with people who are seriously hard to get hold of. I'm going to be working with 12-16 year olds, so that'll be scary mary.
I'm not feeling so good right now. A bit homesick. Paranoid. Worried. Just a bit blaah.
Tiny didn't text me back last night, or this morning. He never texts me first anymore. I spoke to Si about it and he thought that maybe its just a sign that he doesn't feel the need to anymore, like yano he's comfortable with me. Obviously I see it as he can't be fucked. I'm getting so many conflicting messages from him, it's doing my head in. And then there's the KinkyBoots thing. He asked me to clean out his DSI Inbox for him because he's a spack and couldn't work out the eye-system. So I did. And I found that he'd tried to talk to her and another girl. But like... I told myself that's cool. I talk to people all the time without meaning anything. But it kinda hurt that he spoke to them on the day that I left. I dunno. I spose I'll just have to ask him. I don't think I can go through all of that shit again.
Other than that huge crater, I'm ok. Just need to have a word, is all.
The sun is hot and making me feel a lot happier... Even if I am in an office most of the time at the moment.
This weekend I'm going to go to the beach. DEFINATLY. If it KILLS me. Because I need a tan damnit. Tomorrow I'm going to go to Gros Islet I think, to the mall. I wana wander around shops, maybe buy some clothes and a CD player. Especially since I've lost my fucking MP3. GAH. And then tomorrow night I'm thinking about going to the Movies, I duno what I wana see but I need some time alone with chocolate and a big screen. Annnnnnnnnnd Sunday? THE BEACH. Yes mate.
And I'm working.
Or supposed to be.
I'm just doing basic admin at the moment, making schedules and such, trying to arrange my workshops with people who are seriously hard to get hold of. I'm going to be working with 12-16 year olds, so that'll be scary mary.
I'm not feeling so good right now. A bit homesick. Paranoid. Worried. Just a bit blaah.
Tiny didn't text me back last night, or this morning. He never texts me first anymore. I spoke to Si about it and he thought that maybe its just a sign that he doesn't feel the need to anymore, like yano he's comfortable with me. Obviously I see it as he can't be fucked. I'm getting so many conflicting messages from him, it's doing my head in. And then there's the KinkyBoots thing. He asked me to clean out his DSI Inbox for him because he's a spack and couldn't work out the eye-system. So I did. And I found that he'd tried to talk to her and another girl. But like... I told myself that's cool. I talk to people all the time without meaning anything. But it kinda hurt that he spoke to them on the day that I left. I dunno. I spose I'll just have to ask him. I don't think I can go through all of that shit again.
Other than that huge crater, I'm ok. Just need to have a word, is all.
The sun is hot and making me feel a lot happier... Even if I am in an office most of the time at the moment.
This weekend I'm going to go to the beach. DEFINATLY. If it KILLS me. Because I need a tan damnit. Tomorrow I'm going to go to Gros Islet I think, to the mall. I wana wander around shops, maybe buy some clothes and a CD player. Especially since I've lost my fucking MP3. GAH. And then tomorrow night I'm thinking about going to the Movies, I duno what I wana see but I need some time alone with chocolate and a big screen. Annnnnnnnnnd Sunday? THE BEACH. Yes mate.