reach. for. it.
will you be the savior of the broken, the beaten, and the DAMNED?
in psychology today we learned the different methods of psychological experiments and the way that these methods of experimentation have advanced over the years.
did you know that our greatest advancement has been to stop talking to the subjects.
that's you and me ladies and gents. thats us. we are the mother fucking subjects.
but. for effecive research reasons the subject is considered pointless entirely other than their random input for experiments.
i feel like a real psychologist. not giving a fuck in hell about what my 'subject' is doing.
i just see that they have a response to the stimuli and then go on and look for the next subject... so that i can get their response and then move on to the next and then the next and then the next.
what i learned tonight. in my psychology class is simply this- if i use my 'subjects' to learn about their brains i am practicing unadvanced simplistic and prehistoric methods of psychology.
that makes me sick
i thought i was picking something that would help me know how to help people.
you know what.
i will.
i am going to do something with this worthless little life of mine.
something.
not that anything i do will actually matter but i assume that the universe or god or somebody/thing put us humans here for something.
i'm going to learn. use my brain. and then use my life. for something.
i'm going to learn to create. conserve. love. and breathe the air that is created for me.
even if my life doesn't mean anything to anyone else other than me. it is going to mean- really mean something to me.
i guess i'll go be part of it now.
despite the feelings of egging suicide that i am contemplating. ha ha.
fucking life. nagging me.
i hate being nagged at. i'll do it. i'll live.
i'm just taking a break right now.
so i don't break all of you into small pieces.
this being said.
i think i have anger issues. lol.
i love life.
*_* ta-frickin-da *_*
in psychology today we learned the different methods of psychological experiments and the way that these methods of experimentation have advanced over the years.
did you know that our greatest advancement has been to stop talking to the subjects.
that's you and me ladies and gents. thats us. we are the mother fucking subjects.
but. for effecive research reasons the subject is considered pointless entirely other than their random input for experiments.
i feel like a real psychologist. not giving a fuck in hell about what my 'subject' is doing.
i just see that they have a response to the stimuli and then go on and look for the next subject... so that i can get their response and then move on to the next and then the next and then the next.
what i learned tonight. in my psychology class is simply this- if i use my 'subjects' to learn about their brains i am practicing unadvanced simplistic and prehistoric methods of psychology.
that makes me sick
i thought i was picking something that would help me know how to help people.
you know what.
i will.
i am going to do something with this worthless little life of mine.
something.
not that anything i do will actually matter but i assume that the universe or god or somebody/thing put us humans here for something.
i'm going to learn. use my brain. and then use my life. for something.
i'm going to learn to create. conserve. love. and breathe the air that is created for me.
even if my life doesn't mean anything to anyone else other than me. it is going to mean- really mean something to me.
i guess i'll go be part of it now.
despite the feelings of egging suicide that i am contemplating. ha ha.
fucking life. nagging me.
i hate being nagged at. i'll do it. i'll live.
i'm just taking a break right now.
so i don't break all of you into small pieces.
this being said.
i think i have anger issues. lol.
i love life.
*_* ta-frickin-da *_*