the. first. numb. winds.

[m00n_dust]

i am. broken.

maybe i have to be alone for a while... to be broken... to just let myself be broken... to heal...

i have never hated people before...
but, right now...
i hate people.

i have never wanted to really ((really)) fall into nothingness before...
but, right now...
nothingness is all that sounds welcoming.

i want, so badly. not to care about any of you.
none of you have prooved to care, in the least, about me... in the end...
and as much as i have screamed, "worth it, worth it"
i don't think anyone, thus far, really has been...

but... i'm not worth it for them either...
worth anything...

i give up.
i'm much too tired to fight this battle anymore...
i don't want any of you.

just myself... maybe... i can trust me...