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for a while, i decided
to vanish...
i tried. but it hurt.
because letting go is only easy...
when you want it.
sometimes you have to let it all leave you, then watch as they deny you when you beg for mercy.
i am one big mistake.
i mess up all the time, constantly. and, then, i always realize just a little too late... how badly i fucked up.
i don't mean to push away everything i love... i just know they're all that can hurt me... and they're so good at it. it's scary.
i'm sorry. in a million ways. and always.
that doesn't make it ok. with you. or me.
but... i just thought you should know.
i do love you... both. all.
to vanish...
i tried. but it hurt.
because letting go is only easy...
when you want it.
sometimes you have to let it all leave you, then watch as they deny you when you beg for mercy.
i am one big mistake.
i mess up all the time, constantly. and, then, i always realize just a little too late... how badly i fucked up.
i don't mean to push away everything i love... i just know they're all that can hurt me... and they're so good at it. it's scary.
i'm sorry. in a million ways. and always.
that doesn't make it ok. with you. or me.
but... i just thought you should know.
i do love you... both. all.