everyone is going to hug you and give you the attention you are vying for... but it's not what you want. I loved you, and I still wish we could have enough in common to hang out, because you were, at some point, a great person... but you are sinking in to a deep hole, and you are the only person who is capable of digging out. I can promise you that regardless of what people say, it doesnt get any easier.... unless you try your damnedest to make it that way.
I'm not reading this and saying you shouldnt write like this... because it is your journal, you're allowed to do what ever the hell you want. What I am saying is that you push great people away by the way you act and you will find out that your real friends are still waiting to the side, waiting for you to grow out of this phase (or that is what they hope it is) i know I want the chris i knew and loved back... i haven't seen her in some time...
Regardless of all of that:
I love you, as a person. I love your mind. I love your beauty. I hope that you find happiness in yourself. I hope that you can live, and love.
(and i heard you were in the hospital... hope you are ok.)
hey maybe instead of being a fucking prick to chirstina you should realize one thing about life itll make things easier to understand that you dont understand other peoples problems no matter what youve been through is understanding I think you're a fucking dick and I cant believe you would say that shit fuck you if you can say that to her than you obviously arent her friend I wish I could punch you in the fucking face for being so god damn ignorent and maybe shes not pushing great people away cause obviously YOU ARE NOT you are not a good friend you think you know everything and you're wrong and what if its not a faze christina has been like this for a long time and if you remotley gave a fuck about her you would know so fuck you and your god damn ignorence the shit you said will not make her better in anyway the most it could do is make her fake who she is and what she feels that would not be the real christina and if thats what you need to make yourself feel better than maybe you should go slit your fucking wrists because you are a horrible, self-centered, ignorent, bitch who doesnt want to understand to try to fuck you you are the worst type of friend anyone could ever ask for FUCK YOU
All I have to say to this, is that I was not talking to you; you don't know me. I was sharing MY opinion with CHRIS, not with you. I am not a "bad" person for trying to keep her out of the shit she may be messing with; the bad thing would be to encourage it. You calling me "ignorent" and mispelling it, proves that I am not the one who has an intelligence issue. I may be self-centered and a bitch, but I happen to hold my intelligence to a high-standard. I am aware that I dont understand what she is going through, but I know how she is treating people. I know what she has done to my newest family member. I know that she has been disrespectful, and generally inconsiderate of the fact that other people have feelnigs too. So, please Alise, do not butt in where you are not invited. I know that Chris can stand her own ground... she is strong enough to fight her own battles. (Even though I haven't claimed this as a battle)
I would like to reiterate that I was sharing my personal opinion (which is my right) with someone (not you) who I, at one time, considered a friend.
Internet War? Stupidity set up on the screen. You are simply pushing anger onto a machine, and I am sure its feelings are hurt... however, mine are not.
Im only being a bitch over the internet and lowering myself to these standards because Christina deserves it she needs someone to stick up for her for once and not tell her whats wrong with her and yes, you have a right to your opinion BUT some people have feeling and understanding that you just dont say shit like that and dont try to act smart with me because I am a proven genius beyond the possible level of your understanding and do I look like a fool? sure do I look like a drama queen? probably do I look like I have no life? more than likley but Im willing to lower myself to the level of that in which I loathe because Christina is worth it I would never let anyone get away with saying something like that to her no matter what the circumstances dont bother replying because I wont check it but I think you should sit and re-evaluate your life and priorities try to put yourself in someone elses shoes Im not trying to be a bitch who wants to start drama, as much as it may seem like it I just want you to try and think as though you were her, instead of just having your opinion and sticking to it ACTUALLY listening to what other people say and consider it oh heh and I didnt try to hurt anyones feelings, thats beneath me Im mearly doing what I should as a friend so what should you do????
i appologized to julia. she's a good person and i enjoy her a lot. i didn't mean to be inconsiderate...
you no longer consider me a friend... if that's true perhaps alise has a point... why would one point out anothers faults if they do not like them? or consider them of value or a good person... i think i got all of that out of your comments. you no longer think i'm a good person or value me as your friend. this, and only this, makes me wonder the point of your comment.
*shrugs* i think i'm a bad person too. i know i am. you know this. all people ever have to do is tell me what they want from me... i'll adjust. that's all i know. i do it well. it is, perhaps, all that i do well. morph.
I am glad to hear that you think I am wrong, because maybe it means that I read you wrong, that you are doing better than I have heard. Unattached? That is good, for you, i suppose. That is what you have wanted from me, right? Anyway. I hope you are doing well, and yeah...
i thought, always, that was what you wanted me to want. and so, yes, over time it has become a goal of mine. but, as you well know, things are different now.
I'm not reading this and saying you shouldnt write like this... because it is your journal, you're allowed to do what ever the hell you want. What I am saying is that you push great people away by the way you act and you will find out that your real friends are still waiting to the side, waiting for you to grow out of this phase (or that is what they hope it is) i know I want the chris i knew and loved back... i haven't seen her in some time...
Regardless of all of that:
I love you, as a person. I love your mind. I love your beauty. I hope that you find happiness in yourself. I hope that you can live, and love.
(and i heard you were in the hospital... hope you are ok.)
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maybe instead of being a fucking prick to chirstina you should realize one thing about life
itll make things easier
to understand that you dont understand other peoples problems no matter what youve been through is understanding
I think you're a fucking dick and I cant believe you would say that shit
fuck you
if you can say that to her than you obviously arent her friend
I wish I could punch you in the fucking face for being so god damn ignorent
and maybe shes not pushing great people away
cause obviously YOU ARE NOT
you are not a good friend
you think you know everything and you're wrong
and what if its not a faze
christina has been like this for a long time
and if you remotley gave a fuck about her you would know
so fuck you and your god damn ignorence
the shit you said will not make her better in anyway
the most it could do is make her fake who she is and what she feels
that would not be the real christina
and if thats what you need to make yourself feel better
than maybe you should go slit your fucking wrists
because you are a horrible, self-centered, ignorent, bitch who doesnt want to understand to try to
fuck you
you are the worst type of friend anyone could ever ask for
FUCK YOU
Alise
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anyway.
**hugs tightly** i love you. and i miss you. and, here lately in particular, i need you too.
hope to hear from you soon,
-Chris
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I would like to reiterate that I was sharing my personal opinion (which is my right) with someone (not you) who I, at one time, considered a friend.
Internet War? Stupidity set up on the screen. You are simply pushing anger onto a machine, and I am sure its feelings are hurt... however, mine are not.
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she needs someone to stick up for her for once and not tell her whats wrong with her
and yes, you have a right to your opinion BUT some people have feeling and understanding that you just dont say shit like that
and dont try to act smart with me because I am a proven genius beyond the possible level of your understanding
and do I look like a fool? sure
do I look like a drama queen? probably
do I look like I have no life? more than likley
but Im willing to lower myself to the level of that in which I loathe
because Christina is worth it
I would never let anyone get away with saying something like that to her no matter what the circumstances
dont bother replying because I wont check it
but I think you should sit and re-evaluate your life and priorities
try to put yourself in someone elses shoes
Im not trying to be a bitch who wants to start drama, as much as it may seem like it
I just want you to try and think as though you were her, instead of just having your opinion and sticking to it
ACTUALLY listening to what other people say and consider it
oh
heh
and I didnt try to hurt anyones feelings, thats beneath me
Im mearly doing what I should as a friend
so what should you do????
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i appologized to julia. she's a good person and i enjoy her a lot. i didn't mean to be inconsiderate...
you no longer consider me a friend...
if that's true perhaps alise has a point... why would one point out anothers faults if they do not like them? or consider them of value or a good person...
i think i got all of that out of your comments. you no longer think i'm a good person or value me as your friend.
this, and only this, makes me wonder the point of your comment.
*shrugs*
i think i'm a bad person too. i know i am. you know this.
all people ever have to do is tell me what they want from me... i'll adjust. that's all i know. i do it well. it is, perhaps, all that i do well. morph.
i'm sorry i hurt julia. it was not my intention.
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it's nice.
though i take your advice to heart, as you well know.
hope you're doing well, and that you're happy.
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