happy fucking new year
new year's eve was just about a joke.
my mom decided we'd all stay home this year, and bring in the new year as a family.
i kinda felt bad though because she was trying so hard, even planning special dishes to make and stuff.
and all i could do was complain about how people are stupid. and new year's is stupid.
i'm not sure what my problem was, but whenever we had finished shopping at wal-mart and were walking to the car i suddenly got in a very distant, solemn mood. it was just after some kids drove by in a car. they were being loud and obnoxious but they looked like they were having fun.
i think the only reason i found them obnoxious was because it wasn't me.
maybe if i just stopped looking at everyone else i'd be able to better appreciate what i had.
maybe if i go to bed now i will be able to stop thinking.
just maybe.
my mom decided we'd all stay home this year, and bring in the new year as a family.
i kinda felt bad though because she was trying so hard, even planning special dishes to make and stuff.
and all i could do was complain about how people are stupid. and new year's is stupid.
i'm not sure what my problem was, but whenever we had finished shopping at wal-mart and were walking to the car i suddenly got in a very distant, solemn mood. it was just after some kids drove by in a car. they were being loud and obnoxious but they looked like they were having fun.
i think the only reason i found them obnoxious was because it wasn't me.
maybe if i just stopped looking at everyone else i'd be able to better appreciate what i had.
maybe if i go to bed now i will be able to stop thinking.
just maybe.