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i visited deb today, which was great. my dad let me take his car and drive there by myself for the first time, so that was pretty exciting. i only hit a curb once.
i hadn't seen her since she'd gotten chemo, so i forgot that she'd lost her hair, and that was sort of surprising. it had started to grow back, and i think she looked beautiful that way. we exchanged gifts; i gave her reflections for ragamuffins, and she gave me a chance at childhood again; they mean a lot to us, so i think they're perfect for each other.
jer was home, and i didn't go see him immediately.. it took me a few hours to decide whether or not it was a good idea.
we just talked about pointless stuff, but it was normal. it was really stressful. i just felt a lot of emotions. i wasn't affectionate, i kept my boundries, so it was okay.
i didn't say goodbye to him when i left.
i think sometimes when you don't say and do the things you want to the most, it makes them more important. like you don't want to waste it, so that when it happens, it'll mean more.
i love that house. i love the people.
that's really all there is to say about that.
i hadn't seen her since she'd gotten chemo, so i forgot that she'd lost her hair, and that was sort of surprising. it had started to grow back, and i think she looked beautiful that way. we exchanged gifts; i gave her reflections for ragamuffins, and she gave me a chance at childhood again; they mean a lot to us, so i think they're perfect for each other.
jer was home, and i didn't go see him immediately.. it took me a few hours to decide whether or not it was a good idea.
we just talked about pointless stuff, but it was normal. it was really stressful. i just felt a lot of emotions. i wasn't affectionate, i kept my boundries, so it was okay.
i didn't say goodbye to him when i left.
i think sometimes when you don't say and do the things you want to the most, it makes them more important. like you don't want to waste it, so that when it happens, it'll mean more.
i love that house. i love the people.
that's really all there is to say about that.