Story: Caged Bird
Title: Caged Bird
Aurthur: Lzay_Night
Pairings: NaruSasu (Onesided)
Rating: T
Summary: Sasuke returns with every intention of leaving again.
He doesn’t know.
No one knows.
I’m his friend, the person he goes to when he is in need, his ‘brother’. I’m the one he calls his ‘important person’, the one so important that he put his own dreams on hold to chase after. The one that caused him countless amounts of pain, and yet he still pushed on.
He was so determined back then. I admit to myself only that I enjoyed the attention that he gave me at the time. No matter how much I pushed him away, verbally and physically, he still chased. He was a constant that I never wanted to see disappear.
So when the time had finally come, I went back to them, him.
Just as I suspected, Konoha was no home for me.
As much as he liked to believe so, I knew better. In fact it seemed everyone BUT he knew better. It was only for his sake that I hadn’t been killed on the spot. Only for his sake that I let them imprison me, and put me on trial. It was only for him that I decided to remain in the place that seemed to have never been my home from the beginning.
I ask myself everyday why I put up with it.
Why did I live in a village that obviously loathed my presence? My very existence pissed a good percentage of them off, and I knew they had every right to be pissed. You just didn’t let the man who destroyed your village and out you through hell and back live with you. It simply wasn’t done.
In yet, here I am.
I didn’t return to the village because I thought of it as my ‘home’. I knew for a fact that Konoha would never again have the title of my ‘home’. It’s a nice thought that someday I will learn to forgive Konoha for what they did to my deceased family, and Konoha forgive me for what I did to their village.
But it was simply that, a thought. One would also think of it as a dream, but I don't hope to accomplish nor even try to reach such a thing, and there for it's not a dream.
I knew such a reality would never come to be, for the hate I have for the very village I now live in, burned as bright as the day it was born. No matter how much he and they wished, I would never be able to live comfortably in the village that killed off my clan.
But it wasn’t entirely impossible.
I was doing it now without much effort. Yes the surveillance was annoying, but ignorable. Yes I would much prefer to be able to go on missions, or for that matter, leave the village, but for my probation both weren’t an option. Yes there were many time were I felt like a caged bird whose wings had been clipped off. Yes there were many times that I ponder on exactly why I wasn’t traveling the world, or working as an assassin far, far away from the village.
There still are many times were I wanted to do nothing more than too flea the village and never look back. These times were getting more frequent as the days passed.
In yet, I still stay.
For him I stayed for he deserved at least that privilege of being able to finally have me where he wanted. For him, his life was now complete and he could move on to accomplishing his life goals now that I was no longer a distraction. He was happy, and for that I stayed.
The feelings I carried for him wasn’t clear to anyone who wasn’t me. Others either thought that I hated him or was simple indifferent to him, and because of that I was hated even more.
No one knew but me.
And I would like to keep it that way.
I would stay in the village for him.
But I would not stay forever.
He had chased, and chased after me over the past three years. During the chase I had caused him great pain. The pain I caused him was something I regret. It’s the only regret I have.
I cared for him deeply, and hate that I was the main cause of his pain for the last few years.
So in my own awkward way, I was trying to make up for it by retuning to a hostile village.
But again, I do not plan to stay forever.
He wanted me by his side, and I simply plan to grant him that wish for now.
When I see for my owns eyes that his lifelong dream has been accomplished, then I will leave. For this village may be a home he always wish to return too, but it was nothing short but a prison in disguise for me. I loved him, but not enough to be his guardian until my last breath.
So until the time came for me to leave, I will help and support him until his life goal is accomplished.
To be continued...
Aurthur: Lzay_Night
Pairings: NaruSasu (Onesided)
Rating: T
Summary: Sasuke returns with every intention of leaving again.
He doesn’t know.
No one knows.
I’m his friend, the person he goes to when he is in need, his ‘brother’. I’m the one he calls his ‘important person’, the one so important that he put his own dreams on hold to chase after. The one that caused him countless amounts of pain, and yet he still pushed on.
He was so determined back then. I admit to myself only that I enjoyed the attention that he gave me at the time. No matter how much I pushed him away, verbally and physically, he still chased. He was a constant that I never wanted to see disappear.
So when the time had finally come, I went back to them, him.
Just as I suspected, Konoha was no home for me.
As much as he liked to believe so, I knew better. In fact it seemed everyone BUT he knew better. It was only for his sake that I hadn’t been killed on the spot. Only for his sake that I let them imprison me, and put me on trial. It was only for him that I decided to remain in the place that seemed to have never been my home from the beginning.
I ask myself everyday why I put up with it.
Why did I live in a village that obviously loathed my presence? My very existence pissed a good percentage of them off, and I knew they had every right to be pissed. You just didn’t let the man who destroyed your village and out you through hell and back live with you. It simply wasn’t done.
In yet, here I am.
I didn’t return to the village because I thought of it as my ‘home’. I knew for a fact that Konoha would never again have the title of my ‘home’. It’s a nice thought that someday I will learn to forgive Konoha for what they did to my deceased family, and Konoha forgive me for what I did to their village.
But it was simply that, a thought. One would also think of it as a dream, but I don't hope to accomplish nor even try to reach such a thing, and there for it's not a dream.
I knew such a reality would never come to be, for the hate I have for the very village I now live in, burned as bright as the day it was born. No matter how much he and they wished, I would never be able to live comfortably in the village that killed off my clan.
But it wasn’t entirely impossible.
I was doing it now without much effort. Yes the surveillance was annoying, but ignorable. Yes I would much prefer to be able to go on missions, or for that matter, leave the village, but for my probation both weren’t an option. Yes there were many time were I felt like a caged bird whose wings had been clipped off. Yes there were many times that I ponder on exactly why I wasn’t traveling the world, or working as an assassin far, far away from the village.
There still are many times were I wanted to do nothing more than too flea the village and never look back. These times were getting more frequent as the days passed.
In yet, I still stay.
For him I stayed for he deserved at least that privilege of being able to finally have me where he wanted. For him, his life was now complete and he could move on to accomplishing his life goals now that I was no longer a distraction. He was happy, and for that I stayed.
The feelings I carried for him wasn’t clear to anyone who wasn’t me. Others either thought that I hated him or was simple indifferent to him, and because of that I was hated even more.
No one knew but me.
And I would like to keep it that way.
I would stay in the village for him.
But I would not stay forever.
He had chased, and chased after me over the past three years. During the chase I had caused him great pain. The pain I caused him was something I regret. It’s the only regret I have.
I cared for him deeply, and hate that I was the main cause of his pain for the last few years.
So in my own awkward way, I was trying to make up for it by retuning to a hostile village.
But again, I do not plan to stay forever.
He wanted me by his side, and I simply plan to grant him that wish for now.
When I see for my owns eyes that his lifelong dream has been accomplished, then I will leave. For this village may be a home he always wish to return too, but it was nothing short but a prison in disguise for me. I loved him, but not enough to be his guardian until my last breath.
So until the time came for me to leave, I will help and support him until his life goal is accomplished.
To be continued...