I'm not normal
Why is it that at any given time of the day I can live within a fantasy world in my head? I can make stuff up, create truths from something that never quite happened, convince myself of things, write stories, poems, and other good things in my head? How is it that I can convince myself that my life is a movie and that at that one point, the director is going to have to yell "Cut!" or "That's a wrap!" And the lights would fade on the set, I'd go home, and I'd be normal for god's sake.
But no, I can't be a normal person. I am so positive that I live a movie life that when something gets bad or reality hits, I suddenly am blocked from every fantasy world I've ever had. My mind can't even process reality and I'm frozen, curled in a ball on my bed, hoping that maybe soon things will be clearer.
There are so many times this happens to me. I often wonder where my mind goes. It's quite odd.
I get to hang out with Miss Amber Novinski today, so I'm way excited. I'm going to give her a call soon. At least something can make this gloomy Thursday turn around.
Because my dreams last night didn't help at all. I had odd dreams and of course I remembered details of many of them. It was way odd.
Odd seems to be the word of the day. Eeps.
I'm gonna go read a bit before calling Ambie. Trying to get my life together again. Because I knock it to pieces in too many ways.
But no, I can't be a normal person. I am so positive that I live a movie life that when something gets bad or reality hits, I suddenly am blocked from every fantasy world I've ever had. My mind can't even process reality and I'm frozen, curled in a ball on my bed, hoping that maybe soon things will be clearer.
There are so many times this happens to me. I often wonder where my mind goes. It's quite odd.
I get to hang out with Miss Amber Novinski today, so I'm way excited. I'm going to give her a call soon. At least something can make this gloomy Thursday turn around.
Because my dreams last night didn't help at all. I had odd dreams and of course I remembered details of many of them. It was way odd.
Odd seems to be the word of the day. Eeps.
I'm gonna go read a bit before calling Ambie. Trying to get my life together again. Because I knock it to pieces in too many ways.