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What is it about myself that I always think the worst of myself? Does that have to do with me feeling displaced in my body? But you know what I am realizing? My body and my skin on top of it is part of me and my experience part of what has made me what I am. Yes, there is a lot of me that existst in spite of my skin color. I have to realize that I don’t seem particularly warm and people have girlfriends before they even knew me and I shouldn’t take that as a personal affront. And Ray, if Ray waits for me that is a miracle, but I shouldn’t expect him to.
And me and Paul had something good and just because he is moved onto a bajillion other girls that does not mean that what the two of us had wasn’t special and just because he is the only one that I have had that with does not mean that he is the only one I will have that with.
I am an obsessive thinker, but I am trying to hold onto the confidence and happiness of salsa and not fret. Spanish will come back to me. It will be okay.
And me and Paul had something good and just because he is moved onto a bajillion other girls that does not mean that what the two of us had wasn’t special and just because he is the only one that I have had that with does not mean that he is the only one I will have that with.
I am an obsessive thinker, but I am trying to hold onto the confidence and happiness of salsa and not fret. Spanish will come back to me. It will be okay.