This post is surprisingly not friends only!
Lately, I have been thinking a lot about who I am as a person and how others perceive me. I so often feel that most people do not see me as I really am. Depending on my circumstances, I am either quite shy and quiet or very goofy and outgoing. Right now, in this ward, I feel at home. I am so comfortable here. And so, I let out my goofy/crazy side quite a bit. In that way I have allowed myself to open up to these people but the weird thing is that that isn't entirely who I am either. Yes, I am silly and funny but there is this other side of me. I feel that because I am so goofy that no one sees me as having any true depth of character. Sometimes I am serious! I feel things very strongly and I think deeply about things. Maybe those things aren't politics or science or what have you. Anyway, I guess what I'm driving at is that I wish more people saw me for me-- and saw me entirely! I sometimes feel easily passed over because people don't take the time to truly get to know me. This isn't meant as a pity party for myself. These are just things that have been weighing on my mind as of late. I thought I'd write them down because I feel I express myself best in a written format. Writing helps me see things clearly. Normally I would post this as friends only but why hide what I'm thinking? Maybe this is the first step to breaking out of my stereotype and letting the world know who I am! Ha. Anyway, I am truly grateful for all those people who DO see me as I really am. They are a tremendous blessing in my life. Sigh. Being a human is complicated, huh?