sixteen hundred feet

[lyssarella]

they said it would stop they said it would stop they said
they said it would stop they said
they told me i would be okay
they promised i would be okay they said
some people take longer than others they told me
in that white room with its cold thick glass windows
that say, come here
all you have to do is
climb
and jump
but the people they all say it will end
the books they all say it goes away
it will subside and fade and the scar wont be much to look at
anyway
while my mattress is burning
and the veins in my arms are swelling
and my thoughts come in chunks and splatter
but if i just wait
if i am just patient
then it stops
it goes away
the pain vanishes and the nightmares end
they say its any day now
take another sample
run another test
sleep, pretty baby, sleep
sleep
sleep