safety
so this is the only place that i can say this without the fear that someone will read this and report to the person that i dont want it to go to!
i met a boy when i moved here. shortly after i started working the kiosk for my coffee shop. he stopped in, and then weeks later recognized me at a show i happened to go to that his band was playing at. i was so attracted to him. so bad. but then i saw that his girlfriend was there, so i said forget it. and there has always been one girl in his life since then, we have just hung out on the side, (doing nothing!) just being friends.
until a couple of days ago. he started looking at me differently. like really looking at me. and had this strange desire to be around me at all times. and tonight we hung out. just him and me. we saw a movie, and then went to lake hughes to look at the stars. we drove a half hour just to look at stars. it was amazing. so peaceful and perfect. and then we came back and were talking, and of course, sex came up. for some odd reason, this boy is going to see if he can make it 40 days and 40 nights without doing anything sexual. at all. even a kiss. so this boy, who calls me beautiful and has named himself 'your dave' doesnt want to hang out with me just for the sex (not like hes getting it!). its for me. the person that i am. and that makes me incredibly happy.
so
incredibly
happy.
and safe.
i met a boy when i moved here. shortly after i started working the kiosk for my coffee shop. he stopped in, and then weeks later recognized me at a show i happened to go to that his band was playing at. i was so attracted to him. so bad. but then i saw that his girlfriend was there, so i said forget it. and there has always been one girl in his life since then, we have just hung out on the side, (doing nothing!) just being friends.
until a couple of days ago. he started looking at me differently. like really looking at me. and had this strange desire to be around me at all times. and tonight we hung out. just him and me. we saw a movie, and then went to lake hughes to look at the stars. we drove a half hour just to look at stars. it was amazing. so peaceful and perfect. and then we came back and were talking, and of course, sex came up. for some odd reason, this boy is going to see if he can make it 40 days and 40 nights without doing anything sexual. at all. even a kiss. so this boy, who calls me beautiful and has named himself 'your dave' doesnt want to hang out with me just for the sex (not like hes getting it!). its for me. the person that i am. and that makes me incredibly happy.
so
incredibly
happy.
and safe.