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17 days
in just 17 days i am going to visit my family in california. im a little scared about it. im so different than how they view me to actually be. i used to say that im the same person all around, that i dont pretend around people to be the person that they want me to be. but i have to. i cant tell my family what i did last night, or last weekend, or whose house i spent the night at last week. they would lecture me, and tell me that i shouldnt do the stuff that im doing, and that im basically a bad person. i dont see myself to be a bad person, just with a few habits that are not so...positive. i just cant do the whole church thing right now. its just not working with me. i went last sunday...felt out of place. it was nice to see everybody. i just cant see myself fitting in with them again. if i ever did! on a side note, im really tired. so im going to finish my little stupid thoughts later and go take a nap before i have to babysit tonight. brian has strep. puts a hold on my social life. damn him. im so supportive.
in just 17 days i am going to visit my family in california. im a little scared about it. im so different than how they view me to actually be. i used to say that im the same person all around, that i dont pretend around people to be the person that they want me to be. but i have to. i cant tell my family what i did last night, or last weekend, or whose house i spent the night at last week. they would lecture me, and tell me that i shouldnt do the stuff that im doing, and that im basically a bad person. i dont see myself to be a bad person, just with a few habits that are not so...positive. i just cant do the whole church thing right now. its just not working with me. i went last sunday...felt out of place. it was nice to see everybody. i just cant see myself fitting in with them again. if i ever did! on a side note, im really tired. so im going to finish my little stupid thoughts later and go take a nap before i have to babysit tonight. brian has strep. puts a hold on my social life. damn him. im so supportive.