blaaahhh
don't you find it funny...how one day can seem like almost perfect
and the next is horribleee
....yesterday I realized I love life right now, everything about it...I love 8th grade, I love not having drama, and I love having the fun we have at schoool....like when people have asked me how I'm doing lately ive been like greatt...never in my life have I really been able to say it was GREAT and mean it...i mean ive had goodddd but it was just those days when you can wake up and think "another good day ahead!:D" instead of dreading schoool and whateverr!
and now today everything went downhillll....don't you hate when you can just NEVER be good enough for the one person you truly do want to....like at school lately it seems like I have gotten attention from everyone but who I want it from...cuz they found something better, someone easier, someone hotter....it seems like no matter what you do theres always SOMEONE out there that just does it better...I feel like I give my everything and I get nothing from them in return and everythings always my faulttt....like when they say you mean more then anyone else and that they love you.....but its one thing to same something...and another thing to actually prove it. I could say im black, or im gorgeous, or im funny, or that i love you when your a random person...but that doesn't mean its really true.
It's so easy to believe something someone tells you like that, but really how do you know if they're just messing with your mind and trying to win you overr
I don't know anymore I just wanna be in my abovee good and smiling moods againnn
but if there's one thing I know...it's that no matter what I do, I'm just NEVER going to be good enough!:/
<3<3<3Alyssaaaa!!
oh yea AND i have my constitution test tomorrow!!!f**errr
P.s. Quincy is hott AND mineee!! heheheh Cassiddyyy!
and the next is horribleee
....yesterday I realized I love life right now, everything about it...I love 8th grade, I love not having drama, and I love having the fun we have at schoool....like when people have asked me how I'm doing lately ive been like greatt...never in my life have I really been able to say it was GREAT and mean it...i mean ive had goodddd but it was just those days when you can wake up and think "another good day ahead!:D" instead of dreading schoool and whateverr!
and now today everything went downhillll....don't you hate when you can just NEVER be good enough for the one person you truly do want to....like at school lately it seems like I have gotten attention from everyone but who I want it from...cuz they found something better, someone easier, someone hotter....it seems like no matter what you do theres always SOMEONE out there that just does it better...I feel like I give my everything and I get nothing from them in return and everythings always my faulttt....like when they say you mean more then anyone else and that they love you.....but its one thing to same something...and another thing to actually prove it. I could say im black, or im gorgeous, or im funny, or that i love you when your a random person...but that doesn't mean its really true.
It's so easy to believe something someone tells you like that, but really how do you know if they're just messing with your mind and trying to win you overr
I don't know anymore I just wanna be in my abovee good and smiling moods againnn
but if there's one thing I know...it's that no matter what I do, I'm just NEVER going to be good enough!:/
<3<3<3Alyssaaaa!!
oh yea AND i have my constitution test tomorrow!!!f**errr
P.s. Quincy is hott AND mineee!! heheheh Cassiddyyy!