i need a better day
So yeah yesterday was crapy but today will be better i hope its really pretty outside so thats a good start i saw this thing about teaching in hunduras in the asu daily news thingy and i'm wondering if you have to actually be a teacher to do that it sounds really neat i would love to go to a place ive never been and help people a change of scenery would really help and a purpose in my life well that would help too i dont know i guess i just really need to get out of jonesboro or maybe its just band i just dont understand why dr caroll thinks so little of me like im obviously good for nothing i respect him for all his knowledge and experience but not for his insensitivity and crudeness he just has a way of making people feel like shit without them really being sure if that was his intention or not most of the complements he gives sound like there should be an extra line tagged on the end that completely contradicts what he just said they just seem like backhanded complements and they make you feel worse rather than better i dont know it just makes me hate band oh well its unimportant i just feel really bad about myself and project all that negative energy on everyone around me i guess i hate myself