this worlds an ugly place, but you're so beautiful to me :-)

[lyssa_lu]

so ok. im doing horrible lately in school. ever since cats is over ive felt like theres no point to anything i do anymore...i feel like whats the point in school? and i know theres a point but i just cant find motivation anywhere, even in myself, and that kinda sucks considering im failing chemistry and civics this term. and tahts so unlike me. i mean went from honor roll all year to...well...SHIT. oh well i dont feel like being sad again tonight. my family wont stop arguing with eachother lately either. i wish shit would just go back to how it was just a month or so ago. today's lisas bday. i love her and im sad i couldnt be there with her on her bday. fuckin moms.

but the good news is around 11 im going to chelseas to see her and lovely. that brightens my life. a lot. damn i hate being the depressing alyssa. grrrrrr. i refuse to let it take over.

by the way im listening to disney music again. what the freak? im a fairy.

love me? leave one bitchass