ok soo..
gosh..the whole college thing.
where do i begin.
well actually, im not going to talk about it all.
im just going to hit on one topic that is hitting me close to home.
i CANNOT stand not seeing my friends everyday.
it is soooo depressing.
and ive talked to people and it happens.
you dont see these people everyday like you did at high school. and suddenly your spare time (if you have any) is taken up by work, studying, and any other things you have going on.
i might just be feeling this i dunno..but i absolutely hate it.
and then..i dunno like since the summer..ive seen a few people but not like really hung out with..its been mostly just phil..which i cant complain cuz id spend any day with him. but i NEED my friends to keep me sane.. i havent had anyone to share stories to..complain to..or just be a friend to in a while. it sucks. and im sorry if i havent been there for any of you in a while.but im going thru this process and i cant take it anymore.
there comes a point where i see that i NEED my friends.
i cant just talk to my sister about everything.
i need to share things..tell things to people..and i havent been doing it.
i guess what im saying is..i dont wanna be the girl who puts all her energy into her boyfriend..while not still communicating w/her friends.
because i have seen it happen before.
the girl basically uses her bf as her best friend.
she loses contact w/all her old girlfriends.
the couple breaks up..and she has no one left.
i CANT DO THAT.
ahhh..i dunno ...i need you guys is what im trying to say.
so much has bottled up in me lately that i havent even came close to having a one on one talk w/someone since like..a month or two ago.
nikki has been good about being there and calling..and hanging out.
but besides that.
i dunno.
i dunno if i can do this.
i miss y'all.
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where do i begin.
well actually, im not going to talk about it all.
im just going to hit on one topic that is hitting me close to home.
i CANNOT stand not seeing my friends everyday.
it is soooo depressing.
and ive talked to people and it happens.
you dont see these people everyday like you did at high school. and suddenly your spare time (if you have any) is taken up by work, studying, and any other things you have going on.
i might just be feeling this i dunno..but i absolutely hate it.
and then..i dunno like since the summer..ive seen a few people but not like really hung out with..its been mostly just phil..which i cant complain cuz id spend any day with him. but i NEED my friends to keep me sane.. i havent had anyone to share stories to..complain to..or just be a friend to in a while. it sucks. and im sorry if i havent been there for any of you in a while.but im going thru this process and i cant take it anymore.
there comes a point where i see that i NEED my friends.
i cant just talk to my sister about everything.
i need to share things..tell things to people..and i havent been doing it.
i guess what im saying is..i dont wanna be the girl who puts all her energy into her boyfriend..while not still communicating w/her friends.
because i have seen it happen before.
the girl basically uses her bf as her best friend.
she loses contact w/all her old girlfriends.
the couple breaks up..and she has no one left.
i CANT DO THAT.
ahhh..i dunno ...i need you guys is what im trying to say.
so much has bottled up in me lately that i havent even came close to having a one on one talk w/someone since like..a month or two ago.
nikki has been good about being there and calling..and hanging out.
but besides that.
i dunno.
i dunno if i can do this.
i miss y'all.
<33