Im tired of all this shit
Im tired of pretending like everything is alright when really Im just going crazy inside. People think that nothing ever goes wrong in my life, but wow they really have no idea. A little while ago something happend between my brother, Andy, and my sister, Amanda. By law I'm not allowed to talk to Andy because of it. Today was supposed to be a very special day for my brother...it was supposed to be his wedding day, but the love of his life doesn't want there to be a wedding now. I am so upset about the whole thing. I can't wait until the day when I can talk to Andy again. We were so close, and we talked about everything...I feel like Ive lost not only my brother but a friend too. Theres so much that we need to talk about. We have so much to catch up on. I always think about how much I wish I could see him. Im so scared that maybe the judge will say that Im never allowed to talk to him again. I wouldnt be able to do it. I love Andy so much, and theres not a day that goes by that I don't think about him. All I can do is just sit here nad pray that some day this will be over, and some day it will be like it never happend, and some day my family will be reunited.