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[lysia]

What is your name?:Jennifer How old are you?:18 When is your Birthday?:May 26, 1986 What is your zodiac sign?:Gemini Where were you born?:In a hospital Where do you live now?:In a house What color eyes do you have?:Blue What color hair do you have?:Purple and black How tall are you?:5'5" How much do you weigh? (Be Honest Ladies):170 What is your race?:Caucasian What is your worst fear?:Being ignorant Do you smoke?:Occasionally Do you drink?:When I can Do you cuss?:Too often Do you use drugs?:Not anymore Have you ever or will you ever steal?:I have but I dont any longer Are you dependable and/or trustworthy?:Yes Do you play in a band or play an instrument?:I pretend to! Do you have any tattoos and/or piercings?:Three in each ear If you had a favorite serial killer who would it be?:The Zodiac Do you suffer from depression disorder?:Probably If you had a choice about how you wanted to die what would it be?:In a horrible way that would make Americans even more afraid to leave their houses. Have you ever tried to commit suicide?:No Have you ever purposely caused harm to yourself or someone else?:Yes What subculture do you belong too?:The good one Are you evil?:Very much so, but in the best possible way. Do you believe that you can be possesed?:No Are you a paranoid person?:Extremely Do you ever get jealous of somebody else?:Sadly, yes Are you obsessive and/or compulsive?:Yes Are you a violent person?:Not anymore Do you take your anger out on other people?:Yes Do you blame other people for your mistakes?:Rarely What is your favorite game?:Text twist What is your favorite movie?:Seven Who is your favorite band?:SP What is your favorite song?:I dont know What kind of books and/or magazines do you read?:Horror and text books! What is your favorite color?:Blue/silver What is your favorite food?:Tacos! What is your favorite drink?:Rum and coke....or water! Do you own a pari of converse?:Yes Do you own a pair of dickies?:Yes Would you ever kill yourself or someone else?:I dont know Are you a virgin?:No Are you kinky?:In my mind Do you like biting?:Eh Do you masturbate?:Yes Do you watch pornography?:Yes, but only with other people because it is not stimulating, however, it makes for good comedy! Have you ever dyed your hair an unusual color?:Several times Have you ever shaved your head in a socially unacceptable way?:Yes Are you hyper active person?:Not as much as I used to be Are you religious?:No Do you have any self inflicted scars?:Several Does pain turn you on?:Eh Do you stand for originality and creativity?:I like to think I do Do you like meeting new people?:Sometimes What do you like most about life?:Knowledge What do you dislike most about life?:dissapoinment Do you believe in love at first fright?:No Have you ever pierced a body part yourself?:Many times Have you ever had to beg for dinner money?:No Do you own a car?:No Have you been to jail, yet?:No Are your clothes held together with safety pins?:Some Do you have actual scars from punk rock shows?:No Have you ever vomit while making out?:No Have you held a job for less than a day?:No Do you own more than two pair of jeans?:No Have you ever had to fuck stuff up for no good reason?:Yep Have you ever been kicked out of your parents house?:Yep Have you ever been fired from your job because of your attitude?:No Does the world piss you off?:Sometimes, but not usually
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Sad music never makes me feel better. I feel so nothingness lately. I dont like not feeling anything. It makes me want to feel down and sometimes I actually succeed in making myself cry about nothing, about the something that should be there but isnt. I know that people around me are broken. I envy people who have a reason to feel broken.

I'm not happy. Nothing in my life gives me reason to be happy. Things have never been so wrong. I dont even know what to say.
People always do the same things. People dont know that they are ignorant. I am a person...I am ignorant, about so many things. I am afraid of being mindless. I want to be intelligent. I am just enough so that I can see my own ignorance and wish that I were'nt this way. I dont know how to change that.

Sean has been acting very strange. I know that there is something wrong but I he wont talk to me.

All of these words mean nothing because they dont say what I want to say. I know that I have something worth saying, it just never sounds good.

I wish I was a better person in every way.

Writing in this journal makes me feel worse.