Sep 23, 2008 22:51
I'm on a Grey's Anatomy kick right now
"we are tired, we are scared denying it doesnt change the truth sooner or later we have to put aside our denial and face the world...Denial its not just a river in Egypt it's a frickin ocean"-Grey's Anatomy
Well this is probably an exaggeration but last week was possibly one of the worst weeks I have had in a long time. I'm only four weeks into the semester and I already feel swamped. This weekend did help me until sunday. Seeing a 19 year old in a coffin ... I just can't get the image out of my head.I know I wasnt great friends with him but I feel so just confused and sad and angry thinking about it. It really hasnt left my mind since I found out. I need to concentrate on my classes which are harder than ever. Organic Chemistry II and Cell Biology are not good to pair together. I just feel like I never have a free moment and when I do It's practically wasted in sleep, food, or usless tv/computer surfing. I think growing up is really starting to scare me. Not so much the growing up, but the responsibilty I am so soon going to have. My dad's right, I need to put all my energy into school and it will pay off. I know easier said than done. I feel like everything in life is though. I think I am going to make a signifigant effort though. To not think about other things in my life, just school thats it one thing to focus on and than maybe I can turn things around. The year started off so well and I've loved every minute of being a sophomore until last week. Just need to prove to myself that I am capable of more than I really know.:)
... peace