Random brain fire

[lysana]

If I say "I love you," unless it's necessary for my sanity and self-respect to rip that sentiment out by the roots, I mean it for keeps. The relationship may fall apart. It may just drift. Or the person may stay in my life for years and years. But the place in my heart remains. It causes a bit of pain sometimes, but I prefer the comfort of the emotion with the pain it brings sometimes over not loving someone. I'm not perfect at expressing it by any means. I've contributed to drifting apart, the gods know. I don't expect people to realize they are still cherished by me when they don't see proof. And even if I do still hold some of those feelings, there are some people toward whom I cannot express those sentiments ever again. It's too dangerous for me to try to go back too far sometimes. I may have said it too quickly sometimes in the past, but I don't lie when I say it.

So yes, if you have heard those words from me, know that you are loved, even if we haven't spoken in a while. It's just the way I am.