Love?
Today marks day 4 of Albert not talking to me. I called him about a hundred times last night. I'm not even exaggerating. I want to know. I want to know why I'm just a toy to him. Why he can't make up his mind about me. I want to try! I want us to work. But it never will if its a one sided thing. I did ask and hope and pray to have him call me back and say he needs me and he loves me. And he did. But the way things are now...I just dont know if I should've wished for that. I think I would've been better off wishing for world peace. You know the term " becareful what you wish for" heh...I should've listend. Although it is what I wanted....the outcome of it all wasnt'. My heart breaks everyday he doesnt call...everyday he decideds to go out and party....talk to new people...meet a new girl...someone who will be there for him...someone who wants to give him her world....just like i do. They're in a much better position than I am. I can hope and wish and pray for him to change back to the old albert....but...i just....I dont knwo if i should continue to wait. and try...all i've been doing is waiting. waiting for him to make his move...waiting for him to decide my future...i dont want to live this way anymore. how can i love someone so much...someone who doesnt put my feelings into consideration??? WHY!? Oh..this hurts way too much...he said he was gonna call me today.....its 11....he hasnt called. I'll give him until 12...if he doesnt then....i'm just gonna be done. that will be his way of saying it without actually saying it.