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It's been a really nice few days.
Monday night I went out with Meghan, Cate, Heather, and Jackie. We were going to drive to Montauk but ended up seeing some of Long Island's haunted spots instead. . . we went to this haunted convent first, where the cops scared the dickens out of us before any ghost could. Then Mount Misery, then Sweet Hollow road, and then Pilgrim State Psych Center. I have this thing about Pilgrim, I'm really kind of obsessed with it. The fact that it's next door to my school makes me think that I may spend some time there.
I'd like to note that we didn't see anything unusual.
Yesterday, Meghan and I went to the beach. That was so nice, we got some sun, and walked a gazillion miles through a nude beach to get to a lighthouse which was not as exciting once we were there. I saw a horseshoe crab walking around in the inlet and it made me really happy. . . I'd only ever seen one at the aquarium before, and there he was, less than two feet away from me in the water. So cool.
Tonight I went to the Cup with Brock, which was really, really nice. I'm glad we finally got the chance to catch up and now it won't be weird and awkward to call him. My tummy is happy from my Matte Latte tea thingybob and peanut butter pie. I'm fat. Fatty fat fat. Fat fat the water rat. My dad always says that and I don't really get it.
I want to change some things in my life. I want to remove all the hatred and anger and negativity from it. It won't be easy, though, I'm so quick to anger lately. But I want to live peacefully and not harm anyone anymore. I think I'm entitled at least to that, if I'm not entitled to happiness, which clearly I'm not.
By nature, I'm not a happy person. I pretend to be, but I'm not. But I can at least be peaceful.
This is a strange little rant.
Monday night I went out with Meghan, Cate, Heather, and Jackie. We were going to drive to Montauk but ended up seeing some of Long Island's haunted spots instead. . . we went to this haunted convent first, where the cops scared the dickens out of us before any ghost could. Then Mount Misery, then Sweet Hollow road, and then Pilgrim State Psych Center. I have this thing about Pilgrim, I'm really kind of obsessed with it. The fact that it's next door to my school makes me think that I may spend some time there.
I'd like to note that we didn't see anything unusual.
Yesterday, Meghan and I went to the beach. That was so nice, we got some sun, and walked a gazillion miles through a nude beach to get to a lighthouse which was not as exciting once we were there. I saw a horseshoe crab walking around in the inlet and it made me really happy. . . I'd only ever seen one at the aquarium before, and there he was, less than two feet away from me in the water. So cool.
Tonight I went to the Cup with Brock, which was really, really nice. I'm glad we finally got the chance to catch up and now it won't be weird and awkward to call him. My tummy is happy from my Matte Latte tea thingybob and peanut butter pie. I'm fat. Fatty fat fat. Fat fat the water rat. My dad always says that and I don't really get it.
I want to change some things in my life. I want to remove all the hatred and anger and negativity from it. It won't be easy, though, I'm so quick to anger lately. But I want to live peacefully and not harm anyone anymore. I think I'm entitled at least to that, if I'm not entitled to happiness, which clearly I'm not.
By nature, I'm not a happy person. I pretend to be, but I'm not. But I can at least be peaceful.
This is a strange little rant.